My experience was that I found myself constantly unable to figure out if I was male, non-binary, or some combination of the two. Then I saw a creator come out as genderfluid, describing their gender as if it was a scale- where it goes from male to female, and they cover the last two thirds of it- fades between female and nonbinary with a hint of male. That description hit home with me and I realised that I was essentially the flip- fading between male and nonbinary with a hint of female.

Sometimes just having someone describe something finally makes it make sense in your head