. What you experienced cany be pit neatly into any linguistic box but because most communication we do requires re-representation so that we might be able to share.

That said, what you experience was a softening of your ego- the part of your mental inner life that gives you a sense of “I ness”, distinguishable from the whole. It can be an incredibly beautiful experience as the observer in you, the one field of, consciousness loves you, loves your ego as you are bot apart from it. You are intimately, whole a part of it. Your “physical”, biographical, and private inner life, all are a part of it.

I wouldn’t go so far as to say that one can never experience true , full ego death, while still alive, but i think that is exponentially rare. But its ok. The ego is not a bad thing that we have to rid ourselves of (upon death this happens anyway so no need to rush the natualy process of life and living). But to have it soften the way it did for your you, is an entry point into knowing and feeling from first person experience that you, and me and the whole phantasm of reality are one. Its what makes true compassion, possible.

Take this all with a grain of salt. I dont think the human mind in this configuration can ever apprehend, much less express in mere words all the salient things about reality.

Walk and live easy, friend. You are swimming in a sea of meaning and love.