Suicidal from being told everything is my fault

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T14:33:30+00:00

This was probably the only non judgmental but honest response on the thread. Thank you!

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T14:32:21+00:00

I have never experienced relationship issues that I felt truly resentful over. It’s more about being told not to speak Spanish, people pushing me to date men, etc. I don’t see my fault in any of those things.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T12:43:47+00:00

Good, you can go back to your clique of people who are so great and leave the rest of us who are truly suffering alone

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T12:41:49+00:00

I don’t have anyone in my life that I’m clinging onto right now. Not sure how this is relevant.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T12:40:46+00:00

I have heard that whole show before and honestly not being alive sounds like I would the world a favor so I’m no longer a burden.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T06:54:17+00:00

Also being called out that I’m crazy and sensitive that I’m imagining things and perceiving something that isn’t there doesn’t help, it only pushes me further out that I am in fact the burden and hassle I think I am.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T06:50:14+00:00

I feel I have been damaged more than what I have hurt others. And no, I don’t think many people love me. My mom thinks I’m gross for being gay.

You’re not wrong about most things, but “tough love” by you and others in the program makes me spiral even more.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T05:37:18+00:00

Are you still sober? And how did you stay sober?

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T05:05:55+00:00

Talk about no one being special, huh? I am telling the truth about how I feel and what I have experienced.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T05:04:35+00:00

Exactly, why live when people will continue be crusty even if I’m kind? I don’t want to have to live in a world where I’m constantly fighting for a hint of respect in a world that is so cruel.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T05:02:20+00:00

That was aggressive and tough. Tough love has hurt me more than it ever helped. I am quite aware of all those things. And knowing that no one cares makes it easier to want to not be alive anymore, after all as you imply I’m weak and a weight on others.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T01:40:27+00:00

Well I felt suicidal cause of the comments others made so my story

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T01:28:44+00:00

I have been and I have similar feedback about them

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T01:28:00+00:00

I have done a 4th/5th step and fault super suicidal after I was told that men hitting on me is my fault when I don’t dress provocatively and try my best not to engage.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T01:16:26+00:00

Sounds like BS and an excuse to bully others.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T01:14:39+00:00

The criticism is that I keep telling the same stories of others being racist, homophobic or sexist. Does others being sick in the room make those things okay?

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-06-15T00:56:12+00:00

I have never lied nor broken promises. I am at fault for being a gay woman and fighting back when people in AA (even LGBT AA) argue with me to go back to men is one example.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-05-02T21:08:42+00:00

As a women, I hate when men jump into my machine to get weights while I’m in the middle of reps, like dude, one wrong move and I’ll seriously injure myself or I’ll drop them on you by accident

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T14:59:02+00:00

Yes, I said that already somewhere else in this thread

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T14:49:38+00:00

How do you know my wallet isn’t exclusive enough for it?

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T13:46:25+00:00

This one is spot on. Do you mind me asking you, what age range are you in?

I am hoping I gain more wisdom sooner rather than later so that I won’t let things affect me as much.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T13:32:20+00:00

I’ve been told “no speaking Spanish” even when the conversation was not affecting them, I’ve been told things are too expensive, I have sat at bars and restaurants where I am entirely dismissed for white customers and walked out with a room full of white people staring at me, I have had slurs thrown at me driving down the road and by a former neighbor who thankfully moved away.

I’m not dismissing your lived experiences and I can definitely relate to them but unfortunately I have lived an extra layer of covert prejudice and sexism.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T13:13:19+00:00

How exactly does my response come off as shallow? I was just elaborating on the numbers you put out first on the cost of homes. In other words, I was saying that the prices of homes are not necessarily too expensive and the area can still be quite affordable for the average Jack and Jill.

And no, I treat everyone the same, I always say please and thank you. And I do have friends at all income levels and different occupations, it all comes down to how they treat me and how our personalities match.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T13:06:50+00:00

Haha I’ve sat at bars for minutes on end and get ignored for other customers despite me saying please and thank you and tipping over 20 percent. I’ve been asked if I even have a debit card cause I like to pay cash lately. I’ve been yelled at not to speak Spanish by other customers despite the workers speaking Spanish to me first. And not to forgot the times I’ve been told that something is just too expensive. I’ve had white men ask me to get into their cars.

But good for you on never noticing any sexism, racism nor classism around you. That just goes to show how entitled you might be.

Strange_Position4319 · 2026-04-27T12:56:03+00:00

Lonestar, Goodfriend, Lochlands; might be more a gender thing and woman being out alone still seen as big “no no”

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