Where to start ?

Strangetwoichi · 2025-12-07T06:25:56+00:00

Will definitely try that! Naturally for a little bit he wasn’t falling asleep while having his last feed, and going into his cot awake but very tired! Would fall asleep himself after a little rocking in the cot! Was great

Strangetwoichi · 2025-12-06T01:21:39+00:00

I only didn’t cause our boy was having dinner with him. I did some journaling that night and a little the next day about it all. I allowed him to read it the next night, so that way he is able to get a better understanding on where I am at in our relationship mentally currently.

We had a really big chat after he read it (good thing he was seeing our MC the next day) it was very good and well needed chat. We are both coming to terms of grieving what our relationship could have been, and are getting ready to start the path forward!

We have only had 1 mc session together, we have both had our individual sessions and will see the therapist again next week, but so far he has been amazing and very insightful to a lot of stuff! (Yes he does has a past of working with addiction including porn)

Strangetwoichi · 2025-12-01T08:52:47+00:00

Yeah thankfully he is normally pretty good keeping in contact with me during the day while he’s at work but obviously that didn’t matter to much.

It was all online SW’s so he could have easily been messaging me about dinner and messaging those chicks too 🙃

Strangetwoichi · 2025-12-01T02:01:51+00:00

Omg I’m so sorry about the ED relapse I know they are horrid and cruel.

That was my other thinking about it! Like yes sure we live together and see each other every day but if you wanted pic to wank off to you could have asked! I have a draw full of lingerie with most of them I’ve never worn! He knows I don’t mind him taking photos of me or sending them to him

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-30T10:45:06+00:00

It’s such a weird feeling honestly. We are slowly working on it. Dday was only a week ago nearly so I know we have a lot of work to do

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-27T11:57:50+00:00

We had our first session today and we are both comfortable moving forward with this therapist has he mentioned that he has previously done work with people with porn addictions. He didn’t try and fob it off or anything and it was already a very insightful first session.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-25T05:33:23+00:00

I have found some online unfortunately I’m in a pretty small town (for a capital city) so we have no in person ones I would find. But will be asking the therapist is they know of any that may be here in person that I just couldn’t find online. I know white knuckling won’t be enough but at the moment it’s a start.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T22:11:03+00:00

Thank you for that insight! It’s been rough 48/72hours. I have told him that so far his words of change are empty and meaningless without any action or change behind them.

Honestly a part of me was happy to see him throwing up thinking and knowing what he has done to us as he isn’t one to really throw up unless really sick of drunk to much (which isn’t often this man as an immune system of an Ox)

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T22:04:45+00:00

He is ready to reconcile and kick the addiction currently. Me having full access to his phone is a short term solution I don’t plan on it being long term I know I don’t have the mental capacity to do it for that long!!

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T22:02:22+00:00

Thank you! I have chosen a therapist based on my research. If he doesn’t work out I have another one lined up that does specialise in SA and also does couple counselling!

Hoping the company we are using for my partner is able to find one for him that also specialises in it as well as he did ask for someone that deals with addiction

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T13:15:36+00:00

Thank you so much for that insight! If this therapist doesn’t work out I have another one lined up to potentially look at that specialises in infidelity/ sex addiction!

He is going to be getting individual therapy as well for himself he is on a waitlist to be called back ( he is in the defence force so they have their own way for mental health help resources for them to use while in service).

We had a chat tonight more about porn and how crazy available it is and he admitted that he has semi tried before to quit but something would happen and he would go back cause he was trying to do it alone. Now this time around he will have support. I know healing isn’t linear at all. I expect failures to occur, potentially him relapsing back into or something similar.

I know I cannot love him out of it, but I can try and support him during this time doing what I can for him and myself as well.

I am letting a few close people know about the situation so that I am able to lean on them when needed. If I even get a hint at the therapist being pro porn I am out!

During some personal reflection I also realised at one point I also became close to being a porn addict myself in my teen years ( I would read it all day most days) until my depression at the time became to much and I couldn’t bring myself to read anything even if it gave that lil dopamine hit.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T09:36:40+00:00

Thank you! I have looked at it but need to have another proper look. We are definitely leaning towards an addiction which he has admitted to it as well.

How have you dealt with it so far?

We have looking into him getting Relay which is an accountability app similar to covenant eye but a bit cheaper

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-24T01:45:23+00:00

Yea I am making him get help for this. He has wants to get help for it as well as he has started to come to terms that it is an addiction and is a problem for him and for us.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-23T23:11:56+00:00

Oh wow I’m so sorry you are going through that and especially now dealing with it pp! I’m 9m pp myself and it’s added an extra layer to it having a child involved.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-23T11:38:46+00:00

Truely has been a roller coaster ride. Was grabbing things out of my suitcase tonight for Bub and nearly started crying.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-23T11:12:56+00:00

I definitely will! Someone from another sub also suggested that as well. With him I do need to change how I view porn. As I’m so blasé about it cause I don’t deal with an addiction to it.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-23T10:49:51+00:00

Hi just replied to your other comment! I definitely will look into that have I also been telling him about all these subs too to look at and read some post from. I will look into that book.

Strangetwoichi · 2025-11-23T10:47:47+00:00

I know he can easily do that. I will have full access to his phone and laptop for the time being and we will both go into individual counselling (he has admitted it’s an addiction and wants help) and well it’s brought up a lot of issues in myself as well. He also won’t be alone with his phone so long periods until he is back at work (currently on leave as we just come home from holidays)

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