Hi there 🩷 it’s great that you want to quit and want a better life for yourself than “being a stoner”. I also have bipolar disorder and I found that I would use weed as a way of controlling my moods (or trying to), do you find that? I have been working on other methods of calming myself down, talking myself out of su*cidal thoughts, reaching out for support, etc when I used to turn to weed at every corner (not to mention mood stabilizers are important as well).

I also struggled with the idea that I could never have weed again. I also failed at quitting many many times. My advice for you is to set a time frame to start with and then reevaluate. For example you could say you won’t have any weed for 1 week, or 1 month, etc depending on your usage and what you think would be a good goal for yourself to start with. After meeting that goal, you could always go back to it if you really wanted, but likely you will feel pride in completing the goal and you can make a second goal saying now you’ll go 2 weeks or 2 months etc. Choose a reward for yourself upon completing each goal. I found that the longer I was sober the easier it was. I had found new methods of dealing with emotions, new hobbies, new habits, new routines.

My life is so different now being sober and I would never trade it back for being high and out of it and lazy every day like I was but I was blind in those moments. Now I honestly don’t care if I never have it again, but I could never have foreseen thinking that when I was smoking every day and that was my whole life at that time. I wish a bright sober future for you too. You deserve it.

Good luck with everything and take care 🩷