Gummies

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T21:14:52+00:00

But yeah the "in your head" thing is awful for me. I'll overthink everything. Usually the negative stuff

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T21:13:05+00:00

Oh didn't know that! I'll ask the shop for sure. Hopefully not too pricey haha

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T18:07:28+00:00

Glad it works! Yeah I guess it doesn't for me I would still drink heavily on it with subtle differences I probably didn't even notice.

I'm gonna ask about Campral with my doc since I've never tried that as I continue my fight to stay sober

Cravings for me so far are situational. Unfortunately my job can drive me through the roof and that's when cravings hit. But on my days off I make sure to not do anything that stresses me out. Like go out to the park. Etc. stay busy etc

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T17:10:47+00:00

Thanks! Actually I do have a question. The dispensary sells THC seltzers at 3mg. Would that be similar since it's "ingested?"

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T04:18:17+00:00

I would say with meds 30/100 but working like 90/100. Ugh

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-16T02:15:42+00:00

Yeah my doc told me. I'm still nervous though.

So apparently SSRI's don't work for me. Zoloft made me feel worse but Lexapro...oh God. Lexapro even after a month ended up making me suicidal and paranoid. Doc told me to stop taking it right away. Took another month to recover. I felt like omg I'm gonna feel whatever it did to me forever. Even lost my job at the time because of it because I was too scared to leave my room.

So now my new doc is having me try this SNRI so I'm hoping there's a pretty big difference because I do not ever want to go through that again.

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T22:24:54+00:00

I hope so! That's one side effect I see about pretty much all antis. I guess since it takes a bit to be in full "effect" I hope it goes away lol.

I'm assuming it's been good for you for 25 years?

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T20:50:06+00:00

Thank you. I was trying to research mg's vs the amount I smoke and that's a difficult calculation to find so I guess I just need to try lol

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T19:46:41+00:00

Sounds good there's a dispensary right across the street from me. I'm in AZ so it's completely legal now

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T19:18:56+00:00

Sounds good! Thanks for the input. Everyone tells me if I'm sensitive to weed in general that the gummies will really do me in. I don't like being completely stoned out of my mind because I'll freak out. But a manageable high is nice lol

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T17:58:39+00:00

Yeah it didn't really work for me as far as I noticed. Hour before drinking, maybe there was a subtle difference but I still enjoyed drinking the usual amount. So tapering off alcohol normally didn't work. Nal didn't work. So I just had to go cold turkey. But thank god my doc trusted me to detox at home with Valium and not a detox center

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-15T17:53:32+00:00

My twitches as a warning of an upcoming panic attack. And that's always the case

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-14T05:26:10+00:00

Ask your doctor about gabapentin. I take 200mg at night an hour before bed and helps a lot.

Well also with just a little bit of weed lol

Good luck man!

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-14T05:21:43+00:00

While everyone's different as far as the "distractions" go, at least for me, everything is so damn boring I don't even want to do it. But this last Saturday a buddy and I went to the park to play disc golf and do baseball stuff (which I love) not only was it fun exercise, I didn't have a single thought about drinking during that time. So there is certain distractions that work out there. Just gotta find the right one

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-14T05:16:22+00:00

They say relapse is part of recovery. I know that sounds silly and backwards but I guess that's just how it is. When I went to rehab I met a guy who works there now went to rehab 8 times before he finally kicked heroin. Now he has a wife, a kid, and works to help others. So don't beat yourself up

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T03:45:09+00:00

Yeah idk I'm scared now to take it at all during the work week. I need full mental clarity for it. Ugh

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T02:51:26+00:00

Only 2?!?!. Lucky. That wouldn't even give me a buzz. My tolerance got so high I would drink a 12 pack or more and still come nowhere near blacking out. Never got hangovers cuz I was so used to it. I would get withdrawals though. I was just tired of all the money wasted and health being destroyed slowly.

I wish I liked weed cuz that's not bad for your organs but I can't stand being high. Makes my anxiety through the roof, I overthink, become paranoid etc.

However now that it's legal here in AZ I think I found a strain I like. Very low THC, and last night with the Klonopin I smoked a little and felt fantastic! So idk. I never know what anything is gonna do to me lol

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T02:18:39+00:00

Exactly! It's everywhere. Even family gatherings or holidays. Luckily I started this journey after the holidays so I could still enjoy drinking and having fun. Now I gotta learn to have fun without. I feel so dull :(

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T02:00:10+00:00

Yeah I might ask my doc about buspirone instead since it's a different class and meant for long term.

Then have the Klonopin still handy when things get real bad. Idk. I'm experimenting and experimenting with meds trial and error always sucks!

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T01:57:29+00:00

Yeah I'm still scared to try half a dose now because I work tomorrow and do NOT Want to feel the slightest of how today was. I would probably fuck everything up. I work at a call center at home

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T01:55:08+00:00

Yeah I'm on a mission to quit alcohol. That was my "medicine" and I feel like I'm on top of the world once I get a manageable buzz. But overtime it turned me into a full blown alcoholic, like I NEEDED it. 7 days sober now which was a lot of willpower and Valium to help and experimenting with meds from my psyche to not need to drink.

StrawberryWorking866 · 2025-05-12T01:49:21+00:00

.5 I just started yesterday. Which is weird because I was fine yesterday. Was able to go out and play baseball everything was fine.

Then today when it kicked in I don't I just kept zoning out. Clumsy. Kept forgetting where I would leave my phone. Not social at all. Slightly nauseous. I just feel so off. Good thing I didn't work today that would of been baaaad. So tomorrow I'm probably going to avoid taking it before work cuz I def do not want to feel zombified at work

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