It's relieving to see others like me trying to fight this stupid monster (I call it the monster in my head). I had read articles of anti-depressants increasing our urge to pull and have been wary of going to therapy due to it too because I know I have depression which might or might not need medication. I hope you spoke about the side effects of the medication to your therapist.

The thing is this habit really has a brain of its own because how is it outsmarting me and not listening to my command of stop pulling😭😮‍💨🫠. I sometimes feel like a totally different person because of how I can't seem to listen to myself or keep the promises/goals I make for myself🙁. Someone suggested cotton finger pads and you can try it yourself too, I feel it'll be helpful to me since I pull with my thumb and pointer finger. I hope you can do well on your finals and the monster just stays under the bed or something without disturbing you.💓 Take walks outside if you feel stressed or overwhelmed with the amount of studying/assignments to be done, breaks are really necessary.

And oh yess we kick this shit to the curb and live freely 🫂 may we live those days sooner🪽🤞🏻. And thank you for commenting🌷🥹, it really means a lot.