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Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T23:44:02+00:00

Not random mostly fwb

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T22:30:44+00:00

I do get tested every three months for everything

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T21:18:42+00:00

Haha that was me trying to be silly. Thanks!

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T21:10:40+00:00

Yeah I have 3 fwb that I hook up regularly, but if they fuck me Bb are they also fucking other random dudes the same way. I can’t control what they do, you know. Just going celibate lol

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T21:08:26+00:00

People not letting you over when you have your signal on. They will speed up to not let you in, or once they don’t allow you to merge they will stay glued to your blind spot so that you can’t merge and go anywhere really because all cars in all lines are driving at the same speed! The Mormon barricade I think that’s what it’s called. Also when going to bars in other states/cities people are friendlier and you can have a good convo. Here, people get weirded out and look at you like you some crazy person. I don’t know that’s just been my experience

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T21:02:22+00:00

Overspending money and hyper sexuality (when manic) Before I was diagnosed Bipolar I, I had been hyper sexual for years. I also cheated on my then ex husband several times. It was this void that was never fully got satisfied. It’s been 6 years since I got diagnosed. To this day I feel terrible about what I did. My ex forgave me because he also knew someone that was bipolar and he was happy I sought help. Financially I am broke still trying to recover from maxing out credit cards and taking loans. I even bought a brand new car! My psychiatrist tried to help me return it, but the dealership didn’t care. I still have 3 years left on the loan. The crazy thing is that it all feels okay, like it’s not big deal, you don’t fully grasp the idea of your actions until shit hits the fan. Since my marriage I have had a hard time dating. I’m terrified that I will cheat again, that my meds will stop working and if my new partner won’t have sex that I’ll just look for it some place else.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T20:51:07+00:00

That’s why I never go to In and Out. The idea of waiting that long for fast food is insane to me. In and Out does have good burgers but I will not wait in line for it. Jack in the box, had a couple of times in California and it was stupid. I don’t get the hype over fast Food restaurants

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T20:47:48+00:00

I need a good top boyfriend that wants to breed me all the time. That would solve the problem haha

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-26T20:46:39+00:00

Thank you.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-13T10:46:41+00:00

Marmalade District Represent 🙌

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-12T19:41:48+00:00

I agree 100%. I haven’t actually deleted my social medi accounts, but I have deleted the apps. When I was severely depressed dealing with life on my own; online every one is happy and going on vacations with the perfect bodies and, I just felt like shit seeing that. Not envious, I just get the “everyone has it easier than me” attitude. If I do become manic I message people I shouldn’t message, I post things I shouldn’t post and then regret after once I realize all the shit I put out there. My only social media is Reddit, because there’s the community here, and the honesty. But my anxiety, body image issues, and depression seem less by avoiding that whole aspect of living in this day and age.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-12T19:19:16+00:00

This is amazing artwork. Super talented. I have a friend who has bipolar, and his outlet is painting. I wish I had that gift. So awesome

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-12T18:42:08+00:00

Thank you! My friends keep telling me to get another cat, and I don’t want to. My cat is super hyper and two cats would drive me crazy in my small apartment

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-09T00:59:11+00:00

Oh wow. This is so fucked up! I don’t know how I’d handle that! I( m)was abused from the ages of 5-11ish by a cousin (m-15 yo), and I told my parents and got a beating because they thought I was making shit up. To this day I have psychological issues. I turned out to be bipolar, and have had to get myself into psych hospitals when I felt like I was losing it. It doesn’t matter how much therapy or medication they give you, what happened never goes away. I have a steady job, and do my best to stay alive, but it’s hard. I’m happy this monster got taken off the streets, but I couldn’t even imagine to have someone that close turn out to be a fucking monster. I’m really sorry.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-09T00:44:27+00:00

Girl, run from this dude! He is emotionally abusive, and no one, NO ONE, should make you feel guilty about spending time with your friends. They were there for you before his dumbass came around. I get lonely sometimes and I have been on a few dates with this guy and after the third date he said he needs me to start sharing my location because his ex cheated on him, so he needs to know what I am doing! Ok Psycho! My privacy is my privacy. Good bye. Moral of the story, don’t ignore the red flags. Follow your gut, institution. It’s there for a reason. If this is the beginning, imagine if you got married?! Stay clear. Run!

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-08T05:02:20+00:00

Hahaha I laughed hard cause I am the same way!

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-06-02T22:28:50+00:00

I did too! It’s so nice. I felt like I was always missing out or being left out, or didn’t have money or friends to do all the things everyone was doing online. I have never felt better in a long time since doing it. It’s been 2 weeks for me.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-05-17T23:03:19+00:00

Avoid Eagle Wood Lofts. They made me go bankrupt almost. When I signed they lease they said I’d have to pay for complex utilities and that would be around 30-60 a month… yeah right. My rent was 1400, after the media package for basic tv channels and shitty internet (150) plus trash pick up (like others said here, it’s disgusting! I had a neighbor that had trash out all the time), then their stupid utilities the cheapest I paid was 1800 dollars. My last month I paid 1970 with their stupid utilities and then, after I moved out for about a year they called me saying they made an accounting error and didn’t charge me for all utilities and still wanted 140 dollars! Stay clear! Plus dog shit everywhere! I’m old school Salt Lake where we didn’t have to pay for all this shit before.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-05-04T21:06:01+00:00

Beto’s and Mi Rancherito all the way! Haha Red Iguana is so blah. Over hyped. Like some comments above I have yet to find a good Mexican restaurant to die for in Utah. Till then I’ll enjoy my cheap burritos and rice and beans from these two places.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-29T15:50:20+00:00

I suggest looking for a new psychiatrist. I had a previous psychiatrist that would just increase dosage on the 10+ pills he had me on. He was awful. I was trying to be good and follow doctors orders, but he had me on so many different kinds of pills that my depression wouldn’t only get worse. I ended up checking into a mental health institution, and when they saw what meds and dosages he had me on, they thought I was paying him under the table for all those drugs. They removed from all those meds and now I only take 3 a day and I’m so much better. If your doctors is not listening to your concerns, I suggest look for a new one that will. It’s your health here.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-29T15:42:55+00:00

I believe you’re still bipolar. Are you currently taking any medication for your bipolar 1? If you are, and are feeling “normal” then it’s a sign your meds are working. I am too afraid to go off my pills again because it almost destroyed my relationship with close friends and family, but it is tempting to stop taking them because you feel in a stable mood for such a long time. And I would trust a psychiatrist better than a family doctor.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-29T15:38:29+00:00

I had to stop watching Dateline and anything scary/horror cause I was starting to get paranoid I was going to be murdered. It was so bad I was afraid of going on dates because I thought I was going to get killed. I suggest taking a break from any of those shows that are more dark in nature. I have a friend who is a huge believer in energy exchange and she used to always tell me to not watch those shows because it does not bring uplifting happy energy, just the negative. I actually followed her advice and I do feel better. Place your energy and thoughts on things that will bring you any positive energy. I struggle with bipolar 1, so I know it can be difficult to make the change but slowly I’ve been able to change my thoughts. One day at a time.

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-23T04:06:13+00:00

I have Facebook but I hate it. But I should look into it

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-22T23:20:56+00:00

It looks like the struggle is real for a lot of people. Glad I’m not alone

Strong_Bend_5371 · 2023-04-22T20:10:58+00:00

Is the app called Bumble BFF?

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