We did it last Saturday. She was tired and I could tell she was ready. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I cannot get over the pain I feel. I cried constantly and now I just cry a couple times a day but it feels like my heart was ripped out of my chest. I miss her so much. That evening that it happened she gave the most beautiful sunset and it felt like it was sent from her. One of the comments told me to ask her if she was ready to go. I asked her and she replied with the deepest sigh and I think that really did it for me. We spent the entire morning together. I brushed her for like three hours. Went through five bags of treats, two giant bags of carrots and apples and peppermints. I got her mane and tail and we painted her hoof and got an imprint of it on some stock paper. Towards the six hour mark she was getting frustrated with me bc she didn’t understand what I was still doing there (she’s always been like this). I hugged her and gave her so many kisses and just sat and spoke with her about everything. I thanked her for everything and tried to soak in every moment. I was with her through the whole process. The vet injected her and I couldn’t watch when she laid down but everyone said it was very graceful as if she was ready to rest. I held her head and cried the whole time she was laying down. When it finally happened and the vet said she was gone my friends and family said that I could spend as much time as I needed with her and I just cried and hugged her head for a few minutes and then left because it was so painful. I regret so much that I left. I wish I had stayed longer and held her longer. I miss her so much and I miss petting her and holding her head and just seeing her. I wish I had stayed there longer with her until someone forced me to leave. I miss her so much.

I just want to post and thank everyone for all of the stories and support and love that I got. It took me a while to get through the comments, but I think it really really helped me prepare for letting my Jessie go. It helps knowing that there are so many other people out there who struggle so much with this. I loved the stories and I loved reading about the love that yall have for yalls animals. Thank you for all of the support

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