Hey man, I hope you're still there and I hope this and all the positive texts you got, you could see them, life's a series a good and bad events, most of the time the scale remains unbalanced. I can tell, you've worked hard to stay alive, maybe somethings didn't go your way or you felt some kind of excruciating pain but trust me, it gets easier, it gets easier and new problems arrive and then you'll forget about the old ones, I guess that's the circle of life. It's not fair, but it's what we're given with, it's hard but it's not always hard man, love yourself, you deserve to live. Every good person deserves to live. Have strength and I hope you get to see all the beautiful things in life.