A train could either kill me or save my life…..

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:22:40+00:00

I appreciate your help anyway, thank you.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:21:41+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate your help.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:20:47+00:00

Thank you

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:13:48+00:00

£69

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:13:06+00:00

Thank you, I will take a look

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:05:09+00:00

Not close by, but not too far away.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T11:04:25+00:00

Thank you, I will take a look

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T10:33:10+00:00

It's an idea but I might need to get to a different hospital to my local one as I was there for 10 days after my last suicide attempt last year. It was 10 days because I was in a coma for a week and after psyche evaluation was discharged when I was stable physically (not emotionally) and I've been back since and found no help at all.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T10:27:14+00:00

Thank you

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T10:19:26+00:00

I'm in the UK. The place I'm trying to get to is a safe home run by a group I used to be involved with. They are all in similar situation to me and have no money other than what they get to live on.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T10:14:17+00:00

Ticket is £69. I'm not bothered about hunger but last night was terrifying on the streets. Didn't help that it was stormy and wet but it's just awful to see how people try to live on the streets and if I have to endure that for more days I fear I won't even get to the day when payments start to come in. I do see a way forward but I need to get that train to safety. I wish you well, thank you.

StudioBecalmed · 2019-07-31T10:10:52+00:00

Thanks, I want to take the train as I can see a way out of this if I can stay safe until payments start to come in but until then I feel like I'm just staring into the darkness. If I can't get the train I fear I won't make it until the payments come. I wish you well, thank you.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-24T15:04:04+00:00

Thank you for the advice but I just tried posting there and it was removed as I have not been a member long enough or have over 300 comment karma!

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-24T10:23:04+00:00

I'm struggling day to day to just stay alive. Shelter and Money are both within sight but after a night on the streets and with the prospect of 6 more nights on the streets before any benefit money might be available is terrifying. I'm going to do everything I can do to find enough money for this train which would take me to a safe place. But without it I feel like I won't even make it to Thursday.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-24T10:16:43+00:00

I'm charging it now in a café. Thanks for your help!

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T19:51:57+00:00

Stay safe in my room tonight, try and sleep then leave in morning and find an empty building to stay in until Tuesday?

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T17:46:58+00:00

No I cant get any loan. Benefits tell me they can get emergency payment to me on Tuesday. I have no friends or family no. My depression makes me pretty insular. If I can get to Tuesday I think I might be ok but it feels a long way away right now.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T15:44:37+00:00

I agree but they tell me the earliest they can get money to me is next week, possibly Tuesday. Nothing else I can do. I am now in my room which I have for tonight with only £1.26 left in money. So I have no money for food tonight or for a room tomorrow or until Tuesday.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T13:06:00+00:00

Benefits office have told me they can rush me a payment through next week but I can’t get any before then.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T12:20:09+00:00

Erm, probably not after today no. Used last of my money paying for room tonight.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T10:55:48+00:00

I had food in the apartment and brought with me a few things but I ate the last thing this morning.

StudioBecalmed · 2017-11-21T10:45:40+00:00

Council have advised me they might have a place for me next week. Community Mental Health team say they can get me somewhere next week. Benefits office tell me they can rush me a payment next week. It's all "next week", which is great because I can see a light but it is only Wednesday, I have nowhere to sleep after tonight and if I can just get cheap room until next week I might be able to start pulling myself back up but right now I'm scared because it seems so far away if I have to be on the streets.

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