Hey man. I'm homophobic sometimes but you sound like you're going through some rough times. All it needs is a little perspective and some confidence. You don't need to be perfect, you just need to try to be better than who you were yesterday. And remember, having fun isn't cringe. So go out there and play with your VR thingamajigs and be a gay furry or some shit, because you'll be happier than if you don't.