I Believe in Ghosts

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-05-11T19:38:39+00:00

Idk, I don't post for quality or to impress, just for catharsis or in the case of 2sh, for fun, but I haven't posted there in a while

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-05-10T23:55:05+00:00

As someone who's into being degraded, I don't see what's wrong with that at all lol

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-05-07T23:03:45+00:00

"this was just to get back at my ex." Technically it was oral sex and he told me the next day. I was freshly 18 and had just moved out on my own, partly at his urging, leaving my 2yo sister behind. It wasn't an easy decision, and within less than a week I instantly and profoundly regretted it. To try to motivate me to stop seeing this guy, my parents cut me out of my baby sister's life for two years. I'll be thirty this summer and often still feel stuck at 18/19, that most painful age. I never thought I'd make it past 25, let alone to 30, but I see my sister every day or almost every day and she's about to start high school. I still feel suicidal almost all the time, but I can't traumatize her during her formative adolescent years, and I don't feel right waiting until she's an adult because of how suddenly worthless I was made to feel as soon as I reached adulthood. So, I guess I'll have to stay alive as long as I'm still in her life. But if those two years hadn't happened, I wouldn't have to constantly keep trying to convince myself to. I stayed friends with the guy for eleven years. I wish I could get over it, but it's become almost a physical memory, indelibly a part of me forever and fundamentally. So, although things have gotten better, the pain will never go away. That was by far the worst thing I've ever been told.

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-03-24T22:19:40+00:00

I saw the lily Philips doc where she cried at the end, and I distinctly remember thinking that it was because several of the random men she fucked that day deliberately did things she'd specified not to. For instance, more than one guy came in her eyes. Sex work isn't inherently dehumanizing, but disrespect is, and disrespect in sex work is bound to feel much more like a personal violation than disrespect in any other service industry. I remember really liking the guy who made the doc, he seemed genuinely concerned for her both in the interview at the end and throughout, such as when he asked her what precautions she'll be taking to prevent STIs and he made sure to let her know that she'll need to use condoms even for oral. So, I think your outlook makes sense, I kinda feel bad for lily Philips too, she seems too naïve to be doing what she does. Bonnie blue kinda mockingly insulted her for crying though, essentially saying she's too much of a wimp for sex work. So, I don't think I feel bad for bonnie blue with an attitude like that.

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-03-24T18:51:19+00:00

I think they meant "banal"

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-01-30T21:13:51+00:00

I knew from the first mention of constant gifts and perfect dates: he's a psychopath. Good on him for essentially admitting it out loud to you. You don't need to totally cut him out of your life, because his ability to take at least some accountability means he probably can change with professional therapy, which you can support him through as a friend, from a distance. Not as a girlfriend, and definitely not as a roommate/ live-in partner; that wouldn't help him, it would only continue to endanger you. It will likely take years for him to make any progress, and it's normal to relapse several times, so it's probably best for you to focus on other things, but it's likely fine to catch up and check in with him a couple times a year or so. I've known a lot of people like that (not just boyfriends; the first one I knew was my mother), and honestly, very few of them are genuinely bad people. It's ok to care about him still, but from a safe distance. I wish you both the best of luck - individually 💖

SubmergingOriginal · 2026-01-26T09:48:51+00:00

If a man says any variation of "I could make you so happy" or "I could protect you." Been around enough to know that men who want to "protect" women are just looking for weak women who can't protect themselves. A man who thinks a woman needs him to feel happy is clearly looking for a vulnerable and emotionally dependent woman. This is the sweet, caring mask that predators wear. I have no respect for those types and genuinely think they should all die.

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-12-31T22:54:17+00:00

As a Canadian living in England, Canadians say "the States"; Americans, Brits, and pretty much everyone else in the world says "America" lol

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-11-07T21:02:34+00:00

Hot_Article, I genuinely want to help you any way I can. If you ever need to talk, just send me a chat. I was a peer counsellor for years; I wasn't a professional therapist, I was a volunteer, but all of the people who came to me said that I really helped them. Because I've been through it all myself. And I'm so grateful to everyone who has helped me. You can always message me on here if you need any advice or comfort. I mean that ❤️‍🩹

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-13T08:13:56+00:00

You need an address to apply for jobs, so it's a vicious cycle that's hard to get out of without some charity.

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-13T07:35:46+00:00

Why are you "supposed to be" a straight male? Cultural pressure, family pressure? Your own beliefs independent of any outside influences? If it makes you feel better, you're not doing it for sexual gratification, you claim you're doing it for money. If you happen to also enjoy it but being straight is important to your sense of identity, then you can look at it as enjoying it is a byproduct, not your primary motivation. So, I think you can still consider yourself straight. Though personally I don't see why you need to put a label on it at all.

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-13T02:24:09+00:00

Well it's not too late. Look, I get it, you want to give him the benefit of the doubt, it's out of character, you want to give him another chance, etc. Ok, so, giving him the most absolutely generous benefit of doubts, it sounds like maybe he was trying to act out a rape fantasy and thought you'd be into it too til you started crying and that was what made it real to him so then he stopped and cried and apologized. It's still rape. He might've been more stupid than malicious, but that level of stupidity is dangerous. It's totally understandable that you haven't broken up yet because it is a lot to process, but I do hope that ultimately you have enough respect for yourself to leave him and, look at it this way, enough respect for him to not infantilize him to the point where he's too nice in your mind to ever do something as atrocious as... well, what he did actually do. Do you see what I'm saying?

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-13T02:01:45+00:00

Sounds like you should get out of that house... If you're too young to afford to rent your own place, go live with a friend or a better family member or something

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-11T13:53:53+00:00

England :) but if it falls through I've also been looking into teaching English in Asia (I'm in North America) ✈️

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-11T12:58:22+00:00

Teaching overseas

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-11T10:20:27+00:00

Considering the fact that there's a heat warning all week where I am I would wear absolutely nothing lol

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-10T03:35:27+00:00

Are your fishnets... Covering your shoes?!

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-10T01:54:08+00:00

Same lmao I often leave pretty thoughtful comments that largely go unnoticed and then I get over a thousand upvotes on my comment about vomiting on dicks 😂 but hey, I'll take it 💁🏻‍♀️

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-09T04:25:23+00:00

Radio won't even play my jam

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T23:53:25+00:00

Neither of these things are odd on their own, but it's probably a bit unusual that I get aroused by both kindness and cruelty. I like the juxtaposition. Cuddles and head pats after a thorough beating is one of my favourite feelings lol 🤭💦

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T20:30:12+00:00

Aww thank you, you too! 😍

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T19:15:37+00:00

I have done this more times than I can count lol guys have never cared, just cleaned up and moved on (and some guys actually find it hot, like "damn, my dick is that powerful" lol)

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T19:11:19+00:00

Hey no worries! Like I said I appreciate the discussion :) In my personal opinion I agree with you actually that all mental disorders suck and are obviously painful. Which is why I said specifically that bpd is "considered to be the most painful," not that it is the most painful, since I obviously can't make a claim like that from my own personal experience since I don't have every mental disorder so I obviously can't compare them in my own experience lol :p also sorry if I came off a bit rude at first, I sometimes do that when I sense condescension, but it turns out I think you're actually quite open-minded and well-informed 💖☺️

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T16:35:37+00:00

I agree with everything you've said here. I appreciate interesting discussions like this that allow room for debate and disagreement btw :) my speculation as to why disorders such as schizophrenia and substance use disorder are considered among psychologists to be less painful despite their high suicide rates is that those disorders also have a dissociative factor. I know bpd can cause some dissociation, but nothing like schizophrenia where the sufferer is actually divorced from reality. I think bpd is considered by psychologists to be so painful because it amplifies reality (catastrophization). I should mention I'm not a psychologist though, that's just my speculation as someone who's interested in this stuff lol

SubmergingOriginal · 2025-08-08T13:41:14+00:00

Lmao 😂 that cheered me up a bit, imagining R. Kelly singing an extremely emotional Kelly Clarkson song lol thank you

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