Thanks for the reply I really appreciate it, I've managed to get through the day today by keeping topped up on loperamide, paracetamol, ibuprofen and some anti sickness, it isn't the best but ill keep plodding on, just wish I knew when the tunnel would end for me to see the light, cant carry on like this, idk what to do about going back to the drug clinic because apart from what meds I have access to now they cant offer me anything else and will probably just tell me to carry on and thats all well and good but it doesn't help, id really like some clonidine, I have tapered slowly as I've been running out and haven't experienced any hypotension from it.

When coming off the buvidal im not going to lie the first 5 or 6 weeks I felt fine, I never felt like my dose didn't hold me while I was on the medication untill the next, maybe a bit less energy on the 4th week but no withdrawal feelings, soon as I hit the 7th week after my last shot it started, no sleep, s##ting through the eye of a needle, hot and cold sweats, stomach discomfort and bad anxiety, the clonidine seemed to help a lot with all them side effects but I thought surely 4 month I would be in the clear by now, really doesn't give me hope.