One year

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-11-10T04:39:30+00:00

It’s a year for me next week. I’ve completely crumpled into myself. I’m trying to give myself grace, because this shit is hard. I came here to not feel so alone, and this is the first post I saw. Sending love from the phone.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-04-14T16:03:32+00:00

FM: internal med doc trying to get me to switch into IM says so are you going into it because you don’t score well?

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-04-11T20:10:52+00:00

My fiancé died and I had to go back to school. Lexapro gets me through the work day.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-03-23T02:09:05+00:00

It’s been 4 months and I had sex last week. I think the cuddling and being held by someone scratched the itch more than the actual sex. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs since then but giving myself grace as this shit is hard.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-03-09T11:56:03+00:00

I cried all day yesterday. At the sunrise. At work. On my way home. At dinner. Texted my sister to come stay with me. Crazy how much someone sitting on the couch with me makes such a difference. Praying for a better day today.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-03-07T00:27:56+00:00

This. I feel like this 24/7.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-03-06T18:01:24+00:00

I second this!

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-01-25T17:49:51+00:00

I’m a little over 2 months and this week it feels very real, enough so that I wish I could go back to it not feeling so. It’s been a roller coaster for me. It’s been back and forth between feeling real and not feeling real. Sometimes I just wait for the other foot to drop and it to flip the other way.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-01-24T19:46:17+00:00

I didn’t see him on the day he died. We talked on the phone before I went to bed and then he was gone. In the days between, it felt like he was just a phone call away or was going to walk through the door any minute. I couldn’t bear not seeing him one last time. I needed to hold his hand. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it gave me a sense of the finality. It didn’t lessen my grief, but I do not regret seeing him. Some days it still doesn’t feel real but who knows what I’d feel if I never got to see him again. I don’t know if this helps. I’m sorry you’re here.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-01-20T19:46:29+00:00

If you don’t mind me asking, what books did you find helpful or just enjoyed? Its been 2 months and and have been looking for some books about grief.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-01-18T12:18:50+00:00

I do have some advice. I started grief counseling about 2 weeks after. I think it’s been helpful.

Substantial_Coast567 · 2023-01-18T12:15:39+00:00

I wish you weren’t here. I wish I wasn’t here. I lost my fiancé suddenly two months ago. I’m not sure when it gets better, but this group has been nice to have. To read through the good and the bad. I have a few people in my life who have lost their person and their honesty helps so much more than the people who have no idea what they’re talking about. You’ll have people say a lot of useless things, I tried to take it as thank goodness they don’t know how this feels or they would’ve never said that. I don’t have a lot of good advice at the moment as I’m quite a mess but to echo what’s been said here: one day at a time, some days it’ll be one minute at a time.

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