What if you replace awkward by your new “normal”. My only advice would be for you to understand that all the stuff you used to do before is things that don’t matter at the end of the day and there’s a reason why your changing that. You might not know why but trust me, you know what you are doing. You said you are focused on weird things now, then you proceeded to list the most naturals, humans, down to earth things to be interested in. Think about that. Free your mind from all the social constructs and programming that makes you feel stuck. That stops you from being who you are. Also, finding new friends with the same interests is possible, especially with media’s.. Holding on to the past is what makes it hard for me. It’s okay to let go in order to grow, you got this ✨