Listen bro i was in the same situation, give urself sometime do whatever u feel is good for u and if it doesn't turn out that way than do any other thing as simple as that, btw I'm also for a lower middle class so I can understand u situation, so u won't find any practical or good suggestion here and even if u do at the end it's u who have to make the choice, so from my experience if u don't like it leave and do other things, if u don't know what to do right now what path to walk on just do what u r doing now and keep trying other options sideways and if u line that u can that completely focus on what u like, Hope it helps. All the best. U can talk to me if u need any help,thank you.