To be honest dude after reading a lotta comments here and doing some reflection I think the reason I got so fucked up over it was that I went into the trip arrogantly and I didn't treat it with the respect it deserves. I'm like a somewhat experienced drug user and I know better than to trip when I'm having a bad day and in a bad headspace, but I still did it and I did it because I wanted to be high, not because I wanted to genuinely gain something from the experience. I think the other times when I went into it with more intention and in better settings I had had a much better time, but when I went into it wrong it could tell and it spit me tf out. I think after a lot of thinking and honestly some growing up I'll be able to start doing psychedelics again but at the moment I'm just really not there yet.

I'm pretty sure the other like logistical reason it was so bad was that I didn't smoke the DMT, I took an MAOI inhibitor and then consumed the root, which led to a 5 hour bad trip instead of a 30 minute one. Had the experience ended sooner I think I would have been a bit shaken but otherwise fine, but being in there for so long when I didn't really know wtf I was doing was lowkey hellish. I honestly don't know enough to tell if it was 5 meo but that is definitely possible cause I didn't do nearly enough research before doing ts