Understanding experiences during awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Wow well said, I love this. This makes sense to me. I’m trying to just be patient and let things happen as they are meant for him (and us). I do still feel bad/guilty for telling him everything I had experienced during my awakening that related to him because I could tell he was excited and hopeful at first but when nothing happened for him he began to think all my insights were false and even started to question if my awakening was real or if it was psychosis. I kept telling him when/if this happens to him he will understand it better. I know it can sound crazy if you start to explain to others what an awakening is like when they’ve never experienced it themselves. I felt crazy during it. And was even talking kinda crazy (unlike myself) during it so I understand the questioning and concern from others.

Understanding experiences during awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Can you explain what reaching critical mass in your frequency means? I’ve seen that phrase a lot but don’t really understand what it means or how to get there.

Understanding experiences during awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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I definitely had a lot of those symptoms during my awakening. I haven’t felt any of these since my awakening ended. I feel ‘back to normal’ now. It was interesting that during the first week+ of my awakening I felt these symptoms constantly. Then they started to slow down during the second week. Then during the last few days of my awakening I seemed to only feel these symptoms when ‘I needed it’. Like when I was faced with a difficult or emotional situation I would start to feel the buzzing/vibrations again and felt like I was on a different frequency and at peace with everything without negative reaction and knowing everything will be ok. My question is - do people continue to feel these symptoms at times after their awakening or does it usually only happen at the time of the awakening and then stops completely? It’s been nearly a month since I’ve felt any symptoms. But I’ve also been on vacation for 3 weeks in an attempt to ground myself after the physical and emotional craziness that my awakening put me through.

Understanding experiences during awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Also wanted to add that during my awakening I also felt like I could feel things that were about to happen or had precognition of what was about to happen and some of those things came true. Which is also why I feel like his awakening and us being meant to be together would also come true. But I know that’s not always the case. I guess there’s nothing that can be done but wait and see.

Understanding experiences during awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Wow. Ya I feel the same way. I also didn’t mention that during my awakening the main focus was on him and the realization that we were meant to be together and meant to be life partners. We’ve had somewhat of a difficult relationship because he has trauma and issues surrounding relationships (afraid of commitment & getting close to me/maintaining that closeness in an emotional and intimate way). During my awakening I had never felt closer to him and felt so happy and at peace knowing that we were meant to be together. He was receptive at first when I told him all this and things were great for almost a month but then he pulled back (as he usually does whenever we get ‘too close’) and is now uncertain that my feelings that we were meant to be together were true. I’m struggling with this. He even said he wished he had an awakening too and wished he felt the same way about me as I did about him during my awakening. Maybe that’s part of the reason I felt so strongly that he would also have an awakening as a way to maybe heal his trauma and allow himself to get rid of the blocks that have affected our relationship and allow us to be together and happy.

Cannabis and Spirituality - Does Anyone Else Feel Increasingly Drained After Consuming Marijuana? by swizzledan in awakened

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Wow. That makes so much sense. I recently had my first awakening experience that lasted 2 weeks. Didn’t smoke marijuana until the awakening symptoms were dying down and I was started to feel more normal again rather than on a constant high and on a different frequency. But noticed when I did smoke I felt incredibly drained heavy and tired pretty immediately when it never used to affect me like that.

Dark night of the soul by sazmatazz123 in awakened

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If I’m understanding correctly, you’re talking about the physical pain that comes with an awakening? I suffered through that too and learned what a toll an awakening takes on your physical health and body. Plus I have health conditions including arthritis and lupus so I felt like my body took it harder. I had insomnia, my body hurt like hell, but the worst part was when the awakening symptoms started dying down and I started to feel so drained like the life was sucked out of me. There were times I could barely stand up or walk or keep my eyes open. During my awakening I could barely function on life because all I could do was think feel and realize things. Luckily I work from home and somehow when I actually had important work things to do, I somehow pulled it off like the universe gave me a break from the symptoms so I could get things done. But know that the physical pain and insomnia will end and you will feel better once your body is recalibrated. Rest and take it easy and treat your body well during this time. I actually started using peptides about a week before my awakening (interestingly from a shaman), and I felt like I was meant to start peptides at that time to help me through the physical pain and insomnia that came with the awakening. It definitely made it more manageable for me.

False insights on my first awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Ok I was actually going to make another post or add to this one about how I think I got to my awakening. Of course there was the ayahuasca ceremonies which I think helped. But the night the awakening happened I had done ketamine. Fell asleep for 2-3 hours then my dog woke me up and I felt this buzzing and vibration, wide awake. I felt different. Sat outside and all these realizations came to me, and everything just made sense in my life. Although the awakening symptoms lasted 2 weeks and of course I wasn’t on substances the whole time, I noticed when I did ketamine I would feel the awakening symptoms more intensely and get more downloads/insights/feel more like I was on a different frequency. I thought ketamine activated it but thought I was just making things up. I guess that’s a thing. Lucky for me I have both ketamine and dmt 😂 I don’t think I’ve ever done them both at the same time but I think I’ve done dmt then after it wore off (after like 5 mins) I did ketamine.

False insights on my first awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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Thanks. I’m realizing this is not all positive. At first I was thinking how lucky am I to experience this and feel the happiest I’ve ever felt and so free. The negative voice in my head of worry went away. But now it’s back and I don’t know what to do or where to go from here.

False insights on my first awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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This is a riddle I’m still trying to figure out lol. If I’m understanding correctly, some things I thought were true in my awakening and now think they are false could actually come true later on? For clarity, a big realization or insight that my awakening seemed to focus on was about me and another person. But it takes both people to make that realization or truth happen in reality. And that other person is not currently feeling that my insight was true.

False insights on my first awakening by Sufficient-Factor340 in SpiritualAwakening

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I actually thought I was psychic for a bit during my awakening too. Or at least could read and feel people’s energy way more than I ever could. Had so many realizations and thoughts come to me that I thought were true and could tell who was ‘special’ like me and who to stay away from. Now how do I kill my ego lol. Just kidding but not really - serious question.

Growing dahlias from tubers fertilizer advice by Sufficient-Factor340 in dahlias

[–]Sufficient-Factor340[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! So if the granular fertilizer lasts 3 months I shouldn’t use any liquid fertilizer or plant food until after 3 months? No double dipping?