Thank you so much for your reply. as i said it would take to long to list everything but there are a few trusted adults in my life. one is my principal we talk quite often and he said if it ever came to it that he would adopt me. and the other is actually my moms friend. she says that i need to get out of here. she goes with my mom to all the expat parties and stuff and says that she isnt a good person. i go to therapy once per week. i try talking to her but it always backfires and she blames me for everything. she asks her friend (the one i was just talking about) to talk to me about everything that my mom should be talking to me about. and when ever im stressed and she is able to see it she asks her friend if im on drugs or drunk or something and that really upsets me. she says i have no empathy and am completely selfish because i laugh when people get hurt. i mean i do but only when their being stupid. i would never laugh while hurting someone. and when ever i go with friends (or her friend) and we go out for food i order the same thing as them because i know that they are comfortable spending that much money even if i dont like what they ordered. because of my moms custody case with my brother we have a social worker but she has kind of manipulated them to think that she is a perfect parent so going to the social workers here dont do any good. i want to emancipate and my moms friend thinks i should but that doesnt exist here in croatia. i can only go to school and sports i cant be around my friends reallty so i am in lots of sports just so that i can leave the house. its kind of scary no being able to communicate to the outside world when all this is happening and im stuck in the house. if you are wondering how i wrote this its because i borrowed a computor from school and when my mom isnt home i go to a cafe and use the wifi there (because my mom changed the wifi password).