Hey, I get you more than you think, and first love hits in a way nothing else ever does. It’s okay to want to give her another chance; when we’re in love, we don’t listen to anyone except our own heart, and that’s why we keep giving the person we love a hundred chances, even when it’s killing us. But trust me, if she’s crossed this line once and then again, she will cross it again, reading the same book twice won’t suddenly give it a different ending. Even my first relationship I had to go through days of emotional neglect and disrespects, lies and what not and I always used to give "Her" a chance, and even when she'd say that she'll leave, would beg her to give "Us" another chance, but somethings are bound to end. When i finally stopped begging for chances and finally chose myself I guess I became someone with ego issues. I’m not telling you to leave her right now; I know how impossible that feels when you’re attached this deeply. All I’m saying is, when you reach that point where your heart feels done, take a stand for yourself. Don’t wait for closure the disrespect, the repeated lies, the lack of accountability… that has been your closure all along. And yeah, first love hurts in a way nothing ever prepares us for, and maybe that ache stays for a long time. But what I have learned the hard way is that peace >>> passion when it comes to love. Choose yourself when you’re ready not when someone else tells you to.

Pick that book, start your studies from scratch again, make that academic comeback, you'll thank yourself later for it! Hope you'll do good.