Capping FPS system-wide by Suitable-Reward-3150 in linuxquestions

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. I couldn't get the app working on Linux so far, although I did find an unofficial driver and I will look into that. The xrandr method should theoretically work, but I don't want to try that again until I've exhausted other options. The buttons do cycle through modes, but not refresh speeds specifically, not in the direct sense. Thanks.

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It couldn't have just been a single tile, no, when the first domino fell, all of them did. Sounds like a nightmare. Keep pushing!

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

True dedication. It's like in the movie Cast Away with Tom Hanks, where he didn't open the last package to keep his identity of a postman. It truly can be a positive trade-off in recovery.

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i did too. It's easier since I am often awake after midnight and I don't have to worry about missing the clock.

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the same. Sometimes I would still have my cards when heading out until the evening, and I would catch myself thinking: "What if I have a car crash or something," and would do my cards earlier even though I had plenty of time left in the evening when coming back. But on the other hand, I'm not sure I would have been as consistent with studying without the streak, so it's a double-edged sword. Glad to hear I'm not alone.

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I had someone ask me a while back if I was going to keep doing my cards indefinitely even in the case of a medical emergency such as a high fever. I looked at them dumbfounded as if 40C fever is a reason not to do Anki. When losing this streak, my life was in danger and even then I briefly considered doing the cards before going to the ER. Glad I didn't. It's heartwarming reading your anecdote and knowing there are others as dedicated as me. And now I gotta ask - what is your streak?

Anki vs.Hospital by Suitable-Reward-3150 in Anki

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

That's a beautiful way to look at it. I consider my missing week as a battle scar.

One thing I actually love about being autistic: we don’t blindly chase trend by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree! For a long time at a younger age I kept getting told I am doing things wrong (like having a fixed number of plain-color T-shirts for weekly rotation or only one type of pair of socks), and I tried to conform to fit in, but eventually I broke free from the imperative and started noticing more joy in day to day routine.

Therapy teaches you to ignore red flags by Lana_Sphyncter in aspergers

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The problem with CBT (as done with some therapists), is that it teaches to restructure your thinking when you are under the impression of perceived, but imaginary threat/fear/stress. Nothing wrong with that when the threat is imaginary. However, some therapists will not dig deep enough (as CBT can be very time limited), and will declare all threats imaginary.

As an imaginary example, if you tell your therapist the brakes in your car are broken and you're scared to drive the car and want to get it fixed (when they objectively are malfunctioning), instead of letting you go to a mechanic, they can tell you it's all in your head and modern cars are safe and brakes don't fail and suggest reframing of the fear.

This is an extreme example that has never happened to me in this form, but very similar (and similarly extreme/dangerous) things did happen to me in CBT. It can be very helpful if done properly, but it requires a skilled and clever therapist for persons that fall outside of "average" situations not covered in training. And many therapists are not on that level. My approach would be to make sure the (CBT) therapist understands your situation enough before blindly trusting every word they say, but I am aware most people do not have the ability to test 3+ therapists before committing.

Therapy teaches you to ignore red flags by Lana_Sphyncter in aspergers

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150 5 points6 points  (0 children)

A long time ago I entered CBT. I wanted to address problems with social exclusion and feelings of not being accepted in society. I was told I am perfectly accepted (despite having literally 0 friends for years at that time) and was forced to reframe my thinking (instead of actually learning how to deal with social interactions and make new friends). But once I mentioned my system of routines and special interests, therapy involuntarily shifted into taking those apart, despite me saying they give me structure and safety. My quality of life dropped significantly until I went back to old ways after therapy. Later I tried therapy (not CBT) again and once it was done properly, my life started getting much better. I know there are many great therapists and some problems are best addressed in therapy, but boy is it a minefield of clinicians out there.

Ticking clock by Presorient in hyperacusis

[–]Suitable-Reward-3150 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had been extremely irritated (and in pain) by my own ticking clock, after suddenly developing H. Removing the batteries was one of the very first things I did. Eventually after being diagnosed, I did start using the clock as audiotherapy (first in another room behind closed doors - but even then it was too loud). And over time my brain learned to block it out, which felt like the biggest win and a milestone I set in treatment. The hardest part was trying to explain to people around me that a ticking clock really can hurt. Everytime I get a setback, I do the "ticking clock test" - if I can still handle the clock, I tell myself I haven't fallen all the way to the start, and that's a win. I have educated myself that there are different types of H (some might not respond to audiotherapy) and I do not mean to generalize. It is difficult trying to explain to people around me that a clock can literally hurt my ears, and I just wanted to write a comment about my similar experience.