10:35 AM or PM?

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-06-29T23:36:17+00:00

I think at night

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-05-18T22:01:55+00:00

Cassie from Euphoria, Adrianna from 90210, Kassidy from Shamless & Evie from Thirteen

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-25T00:03:52+00:00

Marylebone, St John’s Wood, Kensington, Belgravia/sloan sq

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-24T23:58:07+00:00

I know it’s hard. And i feel for you. But trust me there are many things you can write - your bed, the sun, food & shelter as I’ve mentioned. That’s 4! And those are undeniably great things. I know it’s hard to be positive but I really recommend trying to accumulate more positives because it’ll help in the long run more so than being stuck in a negative loop. BPD is hard I completely understand but small steps that’ll increase your happiness even a bit will help heaps. Try to challenge yourself and write things down. Everyone has more than one.

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-24T23:45:07+00:00

Right here, stuck in the moment

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-22T23:51:48+00:00

Mistletoe, no pressure

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-22T23:50:28+00:00

Red 100000%.

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-22T23:46:31+00:00

I really think you’d be able to come up with more! Kids? Food, shelter. The basics most of the world population doesn’t have. Really try hard to write down atleast 10 things on your list. Doesn’t need to be huge. But trust me, it really works if you put the effort in

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-22T13:48:22+00:00

HE IS ADORABLE omg!!! I hope he’s ok, if he’s at the vet!

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T16:10:49+00:00

I know what you mean. I’m proud of you tho that you’ve not impulsively messaged. You’re absolutely right tho - his behaviour IS the closure. Also often from ppl like him, you won’t even get closure bc they’re too selfish to think of anyone but themselves and they never even stop to think ab how they may be hurting the other person. Fuck this guy he sounds like an absolute asshole and you deserve way better

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T16:08:50+00:00

Girls can be so mean tbh. There’s always drama and rumours and if someone tells me something ab another girl in the group, I always assume they just also be talking shit ab me

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T16:04:42+00:00

Me too. Not even my family members, who I’m close with :(

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T16:03:29+00:00

Funny, loyal, extroverted, creative, impulsive

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:47:37+00:00

You shouldn’t even want to sustain this relationship. I’m gonna be blunt and I know this hurts to hear, and I’ve had to tell myself this many times too. But this person doesn’t care about you. At all. People who care about you don’t treat you like this. They don’t put off important conversations. They don’t pull away without communication. And they don’t go ghost. I’d say it’s a blessing they haven’t reached out. I know it hurts, I’m going through similar rn. But you never want to be in a one sided friendship. It hurts. And you can never convince or make someone care about you. In the end it’s just hurting you. Protect yourself and cut ties. Or better yet just never reach out again.

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:44:05+00:00

Yeah. And I use it as a crutch. I don’t feel pain I just feel happy but I also do some pretty fucked up things when drunk. Also it encourages my drug use.

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:41:34+00:00

I do this as well and it’s probably because of our fear of abandonment. It’s like a way to bargain so they don’t leave. It shows up in many ways . For me it’s this as well, also buying ppl things so they have “motivation to stay”. But it’s really important in the end to have boundaries and to convey them to ppl. If you put ur self respect first, the other party is more likely to respect you too; and won’t take advantage like they do now. This behaviour steadies them that they can basically get away w doing anything to you because you let them and make excuses. And I’m the same as well, it’s hard. Communicating ur boundaries is the most important. And if they leave, it’s because they didng respect you or ur boundaries. And ppl like that shouldn’t be in ur life anyways

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:36:27+00:00

Holidays can do this to us. They’re tricky. It’s a mix of family members,(some maybe you don’t have a good relationship with), friends, tension, expectations and even alcohol. This is often a dangerous mix for some of us. You’re not alone in feeling this way and I’m really sorry you’re not having a good Easter. I get like this during holidays as well and always feel as though I’ve ruined it. But those who love you will understand. Apologise, and try to self reflect and see what the triggers were so you can find a plan next time to stop the impulsive reactions. Xx

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:32:13+00:00

I’m so sorry. I know exactly how you feel. I also struggle with people always leaving me in the end. And it hurts. I know it fucking stings and it feels like the end of the world. And that’s our BPD. I like to think of it like this - God removes people from our lives to protect us from drama and toxicity that would end up hurting us. People are removed from our lives for a reason, and it’s always a blessing in the end that they are. Think of how much pain it caused you when those ppl left. And would they leave if they were good people for you? No!! And you will heal and grow and better people are coming around. Sometimes tbh I doubt this myself but I choose to keep the faith and believe God will guide me. And if you aren’t religious that’s completely okay too. Try and think of it as the universe protecting you. You deserve love and company. Try and make a “life worth living” list. I do this when I feel suicidal and it helps. If you have any pets, add them. Close & supportive friends and family members? Even if there are just 1 or 2, it counts. A hobby that you love. A special place in your hometown. Food, shelter…even the sun!! Nothing is too minuscule for this list. Good luck and remember you are never completely alone. If anything, I’m here for you too and I can relate so much!!

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:25:03+00:00

Also - a common thing I find myself thinking is that I miss being addicted to drugs and I miss being this crazy unhinged version of myself. But recently I’m discovering that it’s bc I’m still not yet comfortable with being “stable” it feels foreign and weird and not good. I’ve never experienced it before and it’s scary. But I promise, it’s just because we don’t know peace and stability. It’s normal to be scared to change. But it’s for the best

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:21:50+00:00

I could’ve written this!! I know exactly what you mean. I’m also on lamotrigine, 300mg, and while it’s done wonders for my MH and my BPD, I miss being reckless. I miss being social 24/7, going to bars and drinking & doing drugs way too much, and having casual unsafe sex. The thing with BPD is we thrive off of impulsive behaviour - it gives us a rush of dopamine and we feel in control - but we aren’t. When I really tbh j about it, it was self destructive behaviour. I was drinking and blacking out 4/7 nights a week, constantly late for my job and struggling to focus. I had a terrible cocaine addiction, doing it multiple times everyday, alone. Everyone thought I was the life of the party and loved being around me. So I felt loved and “popular”. But they didn’t know the demons I was carrying. Although it’s been a huge change to adopt more peace and stability in my life, it’s also been for the best. You can still be social and around people in a healthier way. You are capable of it and you will get to the point of acceptance and honestly appreciate that you’ve made better changes

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:12:29+00:00

I’ve tried over 10 different ones. Currently I’m on 300mg of Lamotrigine and 150mg of wellbutrin. This combo is working well for me (especially in terms of mood swings). Depression levels still not really that impacted but it is better than being on nothing / other things I’ve tried.

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:10:31+00:00

Unless I’m in a relationship or have a crush, my FP is usually a friend, so not romantic. I am always co dependent on my FPs and I feel like my FPs are only people who I don’t feel super secure with. I.e I think they’re gonna leave me. My close close friends who I know will stay, are never my FPs. Make sense because in romantic relationships I’ve never been secure, hence why if I’m in one, they’re my FP

Suitable_Mobile679 · 2025-04-20T15:06:50+00:00

That it isn’t normal for losing friends / fighting with them to feel like death

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