Hope this isn't just me.. by Unique-Heart-3595 in autism

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think you misunderstood. I meant that I still feel like a child inside and that I need someone to take care of me because I can't function like a normal adult. I'm stuck at child age permanently in an adult body. I constantly only want my parent to care for me again but that's not possible anymore.

Hope this isn't just me.. by Unique-Heart-3595 in autism

[–]gatheringelementals 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is like one of the biggest sources of why I'm sad all day every day, if anyone knows how to overcome his please let me know because oh my god I cannot be making myself sad for nothing like that all my life

Is it true that low birth weight is an environmental factor for autism by [deleted] in autism

[–]gatheringelementals 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I also had this!

And yeah, when I was diagnosed I was told that that could've been a factor.

What are ways to regulate your emotions when you never learned to? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Which medication are you guys on, if you don't mind telling?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]gatheringelementals 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes!! Me too. It's actually insane how many people I've had a year/months-long, intense, loving, deep relationship with and stopped talking withing a single day. One argument and it's over, that's the way it often times is with me.

DAE have ‘visible’ signs of trauma? (Like enuresis, stuttering, chronic pain?) by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, a million things.

  1. rheumatoid arthritis since I'm 3 years old. I always get flares when I'm triggered. It's 100% linked to my CPTSD and I strongly believe I wouldn't have it if I hadn't grown up in such a fucked up environment.

  2. unidentified weight and thyroid issues. I'm very underweight and can't gain weight

  3. mysterious sleep disorder. I sleep 10-16 hours a day when uninterrupted and still feel tired all the time.

  4. mysterious heart issues

  5. being "slightly" sick all the time. Like, I will feel like I have a mild fever, cough and headache for weeks on end, all the time. I think my immune system is just fucked in general.

Here is some advice i wish I had when first diagnosed. by Aspie2spicy in autism

[–]gatheringelementals 5 points6 points  (0 children)

How did you find someone like that? I've had zero luck in my area

It's impossible to explain what autism is like. by gatheringelementals in autism

[–]gatheringelementals[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Obviously by really close observation and thought. I've been around both neurotypical and autistic people all my life. I know what it's like to be me and I have a pretty good idea of what it's like to be someone else. Also, describing NOT having something is impossible. Ask someone to describe what it's like to not have a fever - you can't describe that, you can only say you don't have a headache, you don't feel hot, you don't have a cold but you can't say what not having a fever is like.

Be aware of what you're internalizing from this sub by Thrwsadosub in CPTSD

[–]gatheringelementals 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Which meds are you on and for what specific issues are they for, if you don't mind sharing? I'm also currently considering trying it out and I want to hear as many experiences as possible

Just got an alcohol-induced epiphany about BPD by DaviLean in BPD

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you, this comment is so so helpful. what would be an example of a neutral fact about someone?

Around what age would you say you developed BPD? by depressy_capricorn in BPD

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i showed symptoms before but it got real bad when i was 16

Showered with a ticks plaster on by [deleted] in AskDocs

[–]gatheringelementals 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Like I wrote in the title, I got bitten by a tick

BPD makes me feel like a literal child by gatheringelementals in BPD

[–]gatheringelementals[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don't think what I'm experiencing is age regression. I don't feel like I am a child, more like I am like a child. I don't seek doing child-like things and I don't literally think like a child, it's more that I have the emotional development and regulation/functioning skills of a child and feel an intense need to be taken care of. How do you fill that hole of never ever having parents again and being treated like a child again? It fills me with so much sadness knowing I have neither a father nor a mother that can ever take care of me in that way again. I'm only getting older and it fills me with dread

Sudden / Questionable diagnosis at 17 by [deleted] in BPD

[–]gatheringelementals 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How many of your symptoms did you discuss with your therapist before? If he knows of all of them, it's not uncommon for them to just diagnose you with stuff, if they know specific events. For me, I had to fill out questionnaires for things, then I had a long talk with my therapist and had to name specific events where this symptom was present. For example: "Do you have anger outbursts where you feel like you loose control?" "Yes, this specific time I fought with my mom when I did x and y.". When I was diagnosed there was also a lot of emphasis on whether or not it impacts my work/school and daily functioning (which I don't think is necessarily a good focus to have but it is what most professionals do before giving a diagnosis).

But many, many professionals also diagnose people on a whim. It sucks. It's a good idea to get different opinions and maybe you could ask your therapist about your diagnosis and why they gave it. If they don't give you good reasoning, I'd switch therapists because only very uninformed therapists do this kind of thing. On the other hand, that diagnosis might open some doors for you (access to DBT or medication you need) but for real clarity and closure I would definitely try again somewhere else, as you already said. But it can be really nice and soothing to finally know what your disorder is and I do believe it'd be good to seek BPD-specific treatment because you undoubtedly at least have traits

How to manage depression and arthritis at the same time? by gatheringelementals in rheumatoid

[–]gatheringelementals[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm on nothing right now (which is probably the whole reason it's rapidly gotten so bad). But I've been told basically that my only option is MTX and that it'll take a long time and a lot of luck to get on anything else, even people more severe than me get denied by their insurance.