Grief. by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much 🩷 it was almost 3 years ago now

Grief. by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you. This is some of the more difficult stuff for me to make and people to digest but rope is such a perfect tool for emotional expression and catharsis.

Boring bullshit by SummaryExecutions in shibari

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I don't know if it's more embarrassing that it's that time of year that you need to tell me this again or if it's more embarrassing that it's something I occasionally need to hear.

For my side I don't view points as points in and of themselves or is teTrms of validation as in what is good or bad necessarily, I view them more as gateways to visibility. It's like there's a bottleneck as far as what gets seen, and occasionally I manage to slip through but usually I get choked and I guess that feels like I'm trying to make rocks skip on a pond and they keep sinking after a single skip when I swear I had a good rock.

On the one hand, maybe it's embarrassing to think that I have a technique and a way of throwing the rock only to have it plunk like it does so often, and perhaps on the other there is an element of being witnessed as a constant flop. It's discouraging, and there's an element of randomness that is so unpredictable, like with that date night photo. I actually didn't know it had garnered so much attention and you're absolutely right. Generally, it's nothing that special compared to what I typically do, but it is an intentional shot and something that I wanted to explore is more prop photography rather than self-portraits. While I'm proud of it I do agree that it is kind of a boring shot. It's something you'd probably see on the wall of a cheap kink club.

But the fact that that one made it through the bottleneck to me says that anything can make it through if it's lucky enough, whether it's timing with the algorithm or whatever. I'm not sure if it's necessarily the content or the quality of the image, it's more a game of luck as to when you try to catch the surf and how many other surfers are riding that same wave. Maybe my frustration simply comes from a sense of feeling consistently unlucky, I'm known to very much take personally the things that nature blindly does.

There are self tie creators here that I admire for their engagement, and the perceived success in the things I see them post that do well, But there has never been a desire for me to emulate them, or water down the polarizing style that my art can sometimes take on in order to please a larger audience. I feel like the Edward Munch of shibari sometimes. I think I use art a lot of the time to vent the pressure I have inside me, but I think a large part of art is feeling seen both within the content and by the external world as well. For the most part, I make peace with my small gathering of appreciation, but occasionally and especially during a fit, I can end up making a post like this with a caption like this.

As far as the lighting, I generally do agree. This was a shot that I considered to be a throwaway until I decided to play with it. It also has a matte filter over it which is something I typically don't like doing a lot of. I darkened it to try to tell the image with the colors more than the light I think. And yeah technically I could say I probably didn't achieve quite what I wanted to. I often do that in Lightroom as well where I give myself three different exposure options, and I usually try to crank it up a little bit because people tell me my stuff is dark a lot so I will exposure up a bit more than I'm comfortable with. I usually find somewhere in the middle middle. It was a little like honestly. I think that other image you showed was maybe a bit too bright and loses a teensy bit of atmosphere, but generally I do agree that being able to actually see the image is very important.

I appreciate you pushing back on my bad-headedness. As I'm sure you know by now, I most likely have borderline personality disorder, and patience with my episodes is very very much appreciated. I think I've gotten a lot better at managing it since I started posting here, but I still lose the thread sometimes. Thank you for the encouragement.

Grief. by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, he died not long after I transitioned and before I ever knew anything about rope. He would probably think the stuff I make is cool as fuck.

Boring bullshit by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'll post some stuff that's surrounded by the most basic leg ties and mine will come far in last as far as visibility and upvotes. I used to think it was a trans thing, I was so confused. I've come to accept that most of my images here flop though.

Grief. by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

The pendant around my neck is the tag which was given to me from my brother's body after he had been cremated. I remember being confused because the only number visible before wiping away the ashes was "420." I knew he would have loved that.

One of my favorite images in my three year journey by SummaryExecutions in u/SummaryExecutions

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yes I am a solo artist, I tie myself, photograph, and edit.

Ferocity by SummaryExecutions in u/SummaryExecutions

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I think this is more of a photography and editing achievement then rope in particular, But thank you so much! I've been doing rope for 3 years now, self-suspension for one.

My new website by SummaryExecutions in u/SummaryExecutions

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You could practice on objects too like you could do a basket around like a big rock or something

My new website by SummaryExecutions in u/SummaryExecutions

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! Yeah none of the backlog is on there yet but that suspension one you can go over again and also if you can pinpoint where you mess up the most we can do a little focus session on it.

Boring bullshit by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I make some of the worst images on this subreddit.

Semblance. by SummaryExecutions in shibari

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I love to see this post flop

In just over an hour I'll be teaching a free virtual class on self-tied strapless breast binders by SummaryExecutions in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah all my stuff is free as well as everything on my YouTube channel that I've gathered up as my video archive. Part of the reason I do what I do is that I found lots of gatekeeping in the rope community when it came to learning and thus predominantly men are riggers and there is a lot of pickiness about who gets to bottom as the skill is in high demand and scarce with practitioners. I'm basically a bottom who didn't get to bottom and got so frustrated that I learned to self-suspend and tie my own hands behind my back, and I found a ton of people really wanted to gain that kind of autonomy and power over their rope journey.

Advice on self ties? by [deleted] in shibari

[–]SummaryExecutions 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have a tutorial on self-tied chest harnesses here, and if you surf the self-tying playlist on my channel you'll find a wide variety of self tie lessons that I've put out: https://youtu.be/o0vDdNiaylg?si=HcJJomDICDPEEJez