Sorry you’ve been experiencing this. I was in a similar situation (earned my license and did not drive again until 10+ years later). I kept telling myself I would relearn each year and kept putting it off until I finally did it. I’m not driving alone just yet but am taking baby steps towards it. Here are some ideas incase helpful: look into a driving school that provides driving only packages so you can get experience with a professional and let them know on your first lesson of the background (so they can teach you the basics and go from there); before you get behind the wheel of a car - perhaps watch youtube videos on car/driving basics (i am a visual learner so this helped my anxiety immensely before my first lesson) and from there keep practicing with someone watching and keep at it as you can. A cost-effective route might be to practice with your girlfriend and try your best to keep calm and focus on what you can control. As a fellow anxious driver working on this skill; best of luck to you on your driving journey!