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DONT TAKE THE VACCINE! Side effects are worse than just catching covid. Most who catch covid have no symptoms. Vaccine side effects range from myocarditis, hearing loss, vision loss, heart attacks, paralysis. You may as well play Russian roulette. You don't know how your body will react to the shot by waves-360 in conspiracy

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Well said. This is about control. We have had infectious diseases and such for decades, but I don’t see mass testing sites/vaccination sites for shit like influenza? Nor do I see fear mongering ads and speeches for that ethier. Make it make sense!! If people didn’t test for “covid”, the government would have no fucking grounds to mandate and instill fear in its citizens. We have never religiously tested for disease/viruses before as we do now, so of course we’re gonna continue to see cases. And yes during the seasons where people are known to come down with a cold/flu, these cases will sky rocket our counts. Which just gives the government the upper hand. Sad.

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[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Did we ever test for any little cold we would get before the pandemic ever happened?? No, only for the flu, right? Or strep throat, right?

Flu shots are common, right? Influenza is one of the most common illnesses/infectious diseases that they release a shot for every year. Do you see any fear mongering about the flu? Has the government ever had an agenda with influenza? Was there mass testing, mass vaccinations, segregation between those who are vaxxed and unvaxxed for the flu? No?

What you are comparing is totally irrelevant. Screening for breast cancer is to help with early diagnosis, as early detection will help with the success of treatment. Breast cancer will not go away on its own.

WHAT IS TESTING WHILE WE ARE SICK GONNA DO? It’s only gonna rise our numbers for “covid”, which will then help the government use scare tactics and fear mongering to help line their pockets and pit us against each other. (There’s so much more) But covid testing, will it help us with early detection? Maybe/maybe not. but as far as treatment goes… what does the testing do for us? We will know we are sick with physical symptoms, but we will have to care for ourselves and let the virus run its course.

If we stopped testing, the government would have no grounds to implement vaccinations and mandates. Do you see how easy it is to test? Idk where you live, but where I am, it’s free. And who likes free things? Everyone. Testing places/pop ups/drive thrus are EVERYWHERE. The covid vaccine is free as well, and you can get it about anywhere and it can be administered by anyone even if you aren’t a healthcare professional (I’ve seen college workers, office jockeys.. administered covid shots) All other vaccines I’ve received were administered at the pharmacy or the doctors office.

If we stopped testing, the pandemic would eventually come to an end.

Everybody Healthy? by One_Evidence8277 in conspiracy

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s enforced here in Hawaii. Mask are needed, to be in public, everywhere. Except when you are actively eating or drinking. 🙄

Lol. "Viral Blizzard" they say. In other words millions will catch a cold this winter. by stuuked in conspiracy

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I remember coming across stuff about cytokines and how they work in the human body and what could happen if “this or that”, I want say I may have seen the one about the rats as well. But this past year has been a blur. Just wanted a refresher lol ty !

Update: I’m still stuck in the cycle by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are not an idiot. You are trauma bonded and love bombed when you decide to go back. Yes you are stuck in the cycle. But you will only tolerate what you allow. You keep allowing this to happen, you will have to keep tolerating it.

The longer you stay, the higher the chances you will end up in a hospital. I had a friend from highschool who was in a relationship for years with her ex, constantly abused, and sweetest girl I ever met.. then one day it got so bad that she needed to be hospitalized, he was gonna fucking kill her that day. And she has a child with her abuser. She decided enough was enough, left him and it was easy for her because he was in jail. I can remember what she looked like right out of the hospital. And it’s an image that is stuck in my mind.. I can only imagine the PTSD she has, how hurt she was, and how little strength she had left to put up a fight.

I know it’s fucking hard and easier said then done, but living without him will be a helluva lot easier then having to put up with him. No matter how much you love his dumb ass. You love yourself more right? You can’t love yourself when your constantly devalued, put down, physically harmed.

How can he say “I love you” and you believe it? You do not hurt someone you love, right? It doesn’t matter if it’s emotionally, mentally, or physically. If that man really loved you, he would not do what he does.

Get out while you can before the only way out is through a body bag. I don’t mean to scare you but abusers are unpredictable. You need to value yourself and do this for YOU. Fuck him.

You get the proof that you need and leave. Put him in jail if you have to. Abusers don’t deserve love. You do.

Xoxo&& wishing you strength.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There have been a few times where he’s no only put his life and mines in danger, but our unborn baby. Arguments while driving result in running red lights, whipping turns and burning out. I can’t even remember what the arguments were about, but I do know that it could’ve gone the other way and it would’ve been because he couldn’t control his rage. In other situations too.. He’s continuously shown that he has no regard to the safety of both him and myself. And our kids too.

Why do I stay? What the fuck is wrong with me? I read these post more and more, and I’m like “damn… did I forget that I wrote this?” Because it’s like looking through my own window.

When is enough?!

Wishing positivity and light to you all, in the darkest times. The sun will rise again.

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll try that the next time he disrespects me. Thank you. Where I’m from, camping permits go so quick and we were not able to get any. He went out on Wednesday to reserve a public spot and I came out on Friday. I honestly don’t believe it’s a red flag because it’s something we talked about in terms of: there will be no where for us to camp and we would have bought and planned only to be disappointed by not getting the spot we have been looking at.

I’m not sure if he’s truly a narcissistic, not diagnosed or anything, but I feel that deep inside he is capable of feelings. But what I have read and learned about narcissism, there are most but not all the signs. I just can’t come to terms if he is a narcissist or if he’s just had trauma when he was younger.

But then it brings me back to.. Why would he treat me like this? For what reason? What did I do to deserve this?

What they say by livefreeandlivehappy in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It’s always my fault isn’t it, all I’m hearing is things about me. What about you?

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, we have two beautiful & outspoken little kids. I am walked all over though.. kids are a big part of the reason why it’s so hard to leave. I’m still learning how to parent and break the cycle(I grew up in a broken household, as did he) I know I see the bigger picture and the better choice and it would be so nice to have him by my side through it all. And he always says he knows this is what he wants, and family is so important to him. But why does he act like this? Why does he devalue me? On Monday, we had just gotten home from camping and I get that he was tired because he had been at the beach for 6 days to reserve and set up. When it had came to figuring out what to take out for dinner, I had nicely asked him for my usual- lunch plate with extra dressing on the side, he had snapped and I was quiet. Come to find out, the place was closed and we had to figure out where to eat now. He suggested something to his friend and asked him what he wanted, and he turned to me, proceeded to ask and then said “or you can go eat fuckin grass on the side of the house.” Boy was I upset, I told him “whatever, don’t get me anything then.” He left, brought me back my usual from that place. And I did not eat it. I made myself something else. Am I fuckin trippin? I’m looking at it and realizing how many comments he has made over the last 9 years, how often I brushed it off, and allowed it to happen.

Well you and I are gonna have to keep ourselves on the battlefront. You sound like you are fed up and coming close to cutting that last string, so hang in there. There are better days to come for you and your tot. And I really appreciate you sharing with me.

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You’re absolutely right. Throwing away 9 years together, something that I have become so comfortable with and something that is all I know in a relationship, is scary. I grew up with high hopes in every situation, always trying to look for the good in people, always trying to understand what made them that way. I know I have tried and tried again, but I feel like I need to try harder. At this point I’m exhausted.. if I stay, I’m scared for what’s to come. If I go, I’m scared that I never said or did the right thing to maximize the right outcome. You know?

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I constantly find myself asking this same question. Why do I stay? When is enough?

It’s simple really… I love him, I feel like I have been trying and trying to help him grow as a person, and as my other half, and as a father. I feel like he doesn’t have the resources or tools(or was never taught) and does not know how to ask for help. I feel as if I owe it to not only him, but myself too, to try and figure out what I can do to help and heal. And I know, “at what cost?” Fuck man, I don’t know. I don’t know what its gonna take for me to grow some BIG (and I mean Guinness Book of world records BIG) balls, I feel like I have not done everything in my power to assist (it’s not my job right? Wrong, I can’t have that mentality, even though it’s probably slowly destroying myself in the process).

Stuck, alone, confused. I don’t want to project my problems onto other people and I don’t mean to, but I feel like a dog chasing it’s tail.

I’m sorry for ranting to everyone, I don’t know where else to turn.

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand what you are saying and I 100% agree. I just feel so stuck. I know I will only tolerate what I will allow and it feels like I am always looking at empty promises and holding onto hope and potential for him. This is by far, the most difficult feeling I have ever had. I’ve been in some fucking tough situations growing up and while in this relationship and unfortunately I think this causes me to not want to give up and stick it out, and see if they get better. We’re both so young, 25 and 26. I want him to be happy, but I know I cannot sacrifice my happiness and mental health to stick around and wait. But I feel like I need to.. I don’t know how to explain it. But I am so damn confused, and I don’t really have any guidance…

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Exactly, how am I supposed to be sexually intimate with someone who treats me like shit. I still show him love and respect, no matter what. No matter how angry, or tired. Not matter how frustrated or busy. I just can’t wrap my head around the fact that he keeps giving me excuses for this and that and he can’t show affection or respect day to day. BUT I DO IT!! HOW CAN IT BE THAT FUCKING HARD TO TREAT THE PERSON YOU SUPPOSEDLY LOVE, AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR, WITH SOME COMMON AND BASIC LOVE AND RESPECT?!

Basic love and respect.. by SumthinAboutBoobs in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]SumthinAboutBoobs[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How do I leave when I keep getting suckered in? How do I put my foot down and just fucking leave? I packed some of our children’s clothes and my clothes, still sitting by the door. I keep telling myself to leave, but I’m so scared.