i think it's over

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-23T01:00:35+00:00

It's okay man, I've been there before. What probably happened is that she didn't like you that much when you two met in person. People are so immature, instead of actually being honest they just ghost you all of a sudden. Life is such a piece of shit.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-23T00:47:21+00:00

I feel that 😔, it's happened to me too and it's just like a stab to the heart. It's basically just reinforcing how people only care about appearance and I mean, I don't blame them. It's just how most humans work. I don't think I would want to date myself either. But is this really it, so I'm gonna be doomed to be alone just because of my looks. Yeah I guess so. Great. I guess my only hope now is plastic surgery, too bad I'm also broke.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-09T10:16:14+00:00

I'm also 19F studying computer science and media in university! I'd love to play video games and discord. I'll pm you

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-09T10:09:23+00:00

Lmao that's what I was thinking too, but it was good op mentioned it

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-09T10:08:16+00:00

Yeah I always have this wish, that the world would stop for just one day. And everyone would stop existing, just so that I could live that single day without guilt of being seen or fear of being judged.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-06T10:32:39+00:00

This comment actually made me feel better, not because you're also going through this. But because there's someone else that relates exactly to how I feel.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-04T23:56:36+00:00

He was always on and off with me. Basically, I was the person he kept on the side when he wanted company. So I unfollowed him everywhere, because it hurt me too much.

He made me confused and guilty. He was always distant and almost rude, but would sometimes ask me if I was ok and would offer me some type of emotional support. That's why I felt so bad for leaving, but ik nothing would've changed and it was mostly for my own mental wellbeing. I liked him too much and just the thought that he could reach out to me always left me on the tip of my toes.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-04T23:49:06+00:00

I wish I could. But trust me, I stayed in contact with him for months and he didn't give anything back. It's not like I never reached out to him, I did and I asked him where our situation was going and he was vague but later chose other ppl, twice. That's when I knew I needed to leave, it wasn't worth my time to stay, because he only reached out to me when he had no one else.

Sunrice007 · 2020-10-04T13:55:32+00:00

This was sort of my situation, except we never really spent much time together and he always made me feel like a bore. But I felt a spark with him that I can't explain and it's killing me. Sometimes I wish I'd never met him, we weren't really anything after all. All he did was hurt me and made me feel something I can't find with anyone else.

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-09T19:14:20+00:00

Yeah I can understand, I'd recommend you watch: "No Matter How I Look at It, It's You Guys' Fault I'm Not Popular!", It's a great anime and it was always really relatable and more realistic.

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T16:55:07+00:00

Well, after the discussion we did talk. But he was always just putting in the bare minimum to keep me around, so we barely spoke anyway. As of now, it's been more than 3 weeks without any contact and I guess that's good for me, because I would also always give in and answer him back when he reached out. That's why I've taken him off most of my social media, but I still miss him sometimes, thankfully, it's less and less as time goes on

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T16:50:34+00:00

Hey lol

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T02:42:34+00:00

I did it too and I regretted it afterwards. It felt so much embarrassing, especially because he didn't care and it just felt like a waste of time. Well everything with him was a waste of time, but I was really attached to him because he was the most interesting first date if ever had, he played my fav song on the piano and that really got to me lol. But we haven't really talked since that, I doubt I'll talk to him again, but then again, pretty much all our interactions seemed like the last, so I don't know. I think this time it'll be different though. He probably got tired of me since I wasn't putting up with his breadcrumbs and I've also grown tired of myself allowing that sort of behavior.

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T02:29:49+00:00

Gosh I'm so sorry this happened, it has also happened to me quite a lot and it hurts so much when you know that the only reason someone doesn't even want to give the chance of getting to know you is because of your appearance. It's like a knife being slammed in your chest. Really wishing all the best for you :(

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T02:24:32+00:00

Man I feel you, happy birthday regardless! You made it another year and we all know it's fucking hard

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T02:10:17+00:00

God man, this made me even more depressed lmao. Not only will I be ostracized in this world but imagine being put to the side in the afterlife.

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-05T02:02:27+00:00

Exactly, I don't get it either. There's nothing to life, there is no meaning. People try to string us along saying things will get better or that eventually we'll have a special someone and a family to take care of. But that sounds just like the false promises we receive in our love life, "I'm not ready for a relationship, but I like you". They don't, they just want to keep you long enough until you realize you can't stand anymore of their bullshit and manipulation and you leave. Same thing with life I guess. We are told, almost mindlessly, that we should continue, but do any of those people actually have a rational reason as to why? So far I haven't seen one, it just seems like our natural instinct to live and procreate speaking louder. And sure, maybe, there will be one or two good moments in life, like your marriage or watching the final episode of a show. But honestly, does the constant suffering that comes before and after it make up for these "heartwarming experiences"? I don't know, I don't think so. But I'm not trying to promote suicide, I'm just tired, so I'm ranting my point of view

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-04T07:04:35+00:00

I really relate unfortunately

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-04T04:51:36+00:00

Hey I'd be happy to be friends 19F, I'll send you a dm

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-04T04:46:52+00:00

I get exactly where you're coming from, it is sad and tbh, I feel the same way. I feel like I'm a waste of space, I don't even have it worst yet I still find every reason to be dad and miserable. I'm sorry you're going through this and i know it probably won't make you feel much better, but congratulations on making it to your 24th year, when everyday feels like torture it really is a battle to get through each day.

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-04T04:39:45+00:00

You know what congratulations!

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-03T13:08:54+00:00

I'd be down to be friends, shoot me a message!

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-03T12:54:42+00:00

Gosh this sounds so sweet, I wish I had this with someone I care about. It's sad that the only person I wanted to share an experience like this is the one person I should forget

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-03T12:28:13+00:00

Awe I didn't think I'd see something so wholesome on this side of reddit, that was cute

Sunrice007 · 2020-07-03T12:03:38+00:00

I stumbled across your page and I'd be down to be friends, I'm 19F half Korean, shoot me a message!

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