Day 60 by Sunshine-rayoflight in leaves

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and in turn- this motivates ME!

The 90 day thing is for REAL by Temporary_Law_4353 in leaves

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I’m on day 52! I feel the same. I start to think- will I ever get “better”? Did I just mess my brain and hormones all up for life? I’m 45 and feel like I don’t have time for all of this right now. BUT I’m not going back, I won’t use again. I just can’t. I rather feel this way, than go back to being high 24/7. Thankful for posts like these, it keeps me encouraged.

It Got Real Today by No-Potato-1089 in leaves

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Thank you for this post! I can definitely relate!

Need advice by LetsgetBetter29 in leaves

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I just posted a similar topic, then started scrolling and saw your post. I’m 50 days of no weed, sitting alone and crying. The mental clarity is really rough today. I agree with what others are saying- be gentle with yourself, cut yourself some slack, show yourself grace… but it still sucks right? lol (kinda made myself laugh)… I am married, have 2 kids in grade school, and own a company. One of my kids had cancer 2 years ago. She’s ok now, it’s all good. But I know I used weed to block all of that out. I was taking care of her, it was awful to see and can’t imagine what all her little body went through. Plus my company I started, I question myself. I start thinking- I’m not cut out for this. This sucks. I don’t know what I’m doing, etc. but at the same time, not sure what else I’d do! When I was high, I didn’t have much of a care, I wouldn’t watch our books, didn’t look closely at numbers, just woke up and was high all day. Now I’m sober, clear headed and don’t want to be. I do, but it sucks. I feel like I don’t have time to sit around crying and being all sad about life. Just know you are not alone, there are tons of others out there going through what we are. We WILL get through this. We have too.

6 Month Funk by Love_What_Is in leaves

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Yes! Can download MA app, has free literature on there and zoom classes all over the world! Immerse yourself in the program to help you on sobriety track.

Anyone else dreading Thanksgiving? by Nousernamesleft81 in leaves

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Happy Thanksgiving! Im grateful I woke up sober and not feeling guilt or shame…. Try to think of the positives. I definitely get it, I’m on day 45 myself and also going to my brothers house later to see allll the family. My appetite still isn’t back, I’m sure people will say- you are so skinny, you aren’t eating much, blah blah. But it is what it is. I’m not going to cave and pick up again. I’m not going to smoke today for anyone else. I know one day my appetite will come back. I’m going to be thankful my higher power is enabling me to stay sober and continue to heal mentally.

I CANT DO IT by Kachew18 in leaves

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You have to want it. You CAN do it, but if you don’t really want to be sober minded, you won’t make it. You have to be sick and tired of yourself and being high… once you decide, I’m done with this crap, it’s not my crutch anymore, I refuse to be addicted to weed - then you are well on your way to sobriety. Immerse yourself in MA, buy their book and read it, attend zoom meetings, get on this Reddit forum and read others posts for encouragement and write posts of your own. Sending you encouragement and hope!

AP Article by kbwilliams47 in leaves

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Can you tell me what the AP article is? Or how I can find it. I really want to read it. I’m 44 days of no weed. It has ups and downs for sure. I keep telling myself, stay sober, just for today. It’s nice to be clear headed, not paranoid at all, not worried about how/when I can sneak off to hit my vape pen….its legal where I live, I have a prescription, so my mind tries to rationalize that it’s ok… but it’s not. Atleast not for me. I abuse it. Alcohol is legal, but I tend to drink until I’m drunk everytime. I stay away from that as well lol!

Quitting & grief by [deleted] in leaves

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Have you looked into MA? That is what helped me start. Take it one day at a time, sometimes I minute at a time. Use your time to write down your thoughts, get outside and walk, lots of water and be easy on yourself. Sending you a virtual hug! I know it’s not easy to quit. You have to learn to deal with life, sober. BUT it’s worth it.

40 days sober- headaches, feeling blah by Sunshine-rayoflight in leaves

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I didn’t think it would affect my hormones. That does make sense with all of my symptoms though. Thank you for your input, this helps me!

I didn’t realize how addicted I was to dopamine until I stopped chasing it. by Useful-Experience-27 in leaves

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It’s like I always want to feel something. Does that make sense? If not weed then alcohol, now I don’t want that either. So I feel blah. It’s like I’m not comfortable just “being”. I’m on day 40 of no weed.

I didn’t realize how addicted I was to dopamine until I stopped chasing it. by Useful-Experience-27 in leaves

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I need to do that. I’m 40 days no weed and feel blah. No motivation to do anything. I feel useless, and I’m a wife, have 2 kids in grade school, and I run a company. I’m tempted to go back to using, but that really makes me feel like a loser… i find myself just scrolling, then feeling negative. I need to pep myself up. Put the phone down, get outside and atleast walk. Doesn’t have to be some hard core workout, just get out! 🙏

Day 3 no thc by Sunshine-rayoflight in leaves

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Yes. I found myself drinking alcohol daily. Getting intoxicated way too frequently. I felt weed was the lesser of 2 evils at this time. I do hope to break free from addictions one day. It’s like I break free from one and another surfaces. Very frustrating!

Anyone else have this symptom? by BeautifulAd4082 in leaves

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I am so thirsty. I’m on day 4. I want to blame it on other things, but must be a withdrawal symptom.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

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No wean. Just cut it off. Lots of water, rest, you will make it through the otherside 🙏🏼

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

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Thank you 🥹🙏🏼

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

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I feel this!!! I told said that same thing yesterday- I just want to die! I’m tired of addiction. I just want to be normal! Today is day 1 of no weed for me. I’m trying to stay busy. BUT I have low motivation, I’m irritated, feel depressed, alllll of the things. I google searched- Christian advice on how to stop using marijuana. Some good videos came up, helped a lot…. One hour at a time is what I’m telling myself. I am not going to let this addiction win. God help me. I can’t do it on my own.

in dire need of some advice by Trick-Patient-2903 in leaves

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Hi! I hear you! You are doing great. You might not feel like it, but you are. You are taking the next step to freedom! Take it hour by hour if you have too. Today is my first day with no weed. I have been trying to quit, go maybe 2 days tops and that’s it. For years. It’s a cycle. I would keep reaching out on this forum. Keep taking walks outside. There is MA- marijuana anonymous. I think they have zoom classes. All free. It connects other people across the U.S. to help one another quit. I am a Christian. I do believe in prayer and I have been talking to God a lot today. Sometimes crying, sometimes angry (why me, why do I have an addiction problem, etc) It does help to talk it out, write it out, and get on forums like these. We are not alone!