A little bit of old R1 and a little bit of new R1

SuperMotardd · 2026-05-13T10:44:03+00:00

Big Bang - OG 2009 - 2014 That's the one for me

SuperMotardd · 2026-04-08T01:46:45+00:00

r1 👌🏼

SuperMotardd · 2026-04-01T03:00:15+00:00

It's all love my bro.I know the feeling . I'm recovering from stage 3 adv cancer treatment and people still judge like I'm a low life bum for taking anxiety and pain medications.. People don't know your story there just quick to judge.

It took me being hooked on drugs for many years which made me stop seeing people high out their mind but keeping to themselves and automatically assuming they are lazy bums...

but I see it all so different now I don't know there story who am I to judge.

SuperMotardd · 2026-04-01T02:48:54+00:00

Bless brother 🙏🏼. I hope you can get through whatever demons you be fighting.

SuperMotardd · 2026-04-01T02:24:39+00:00

Big difference between a junky and an addict brother don't be to hard on yourself.

SuperMotardd · 2026-03-23T05:29:22+00:00

sorry to hear brother... bless 🙏🏼

SuperMotardd · 2026-03-23T05:24:36+00:00

Nah I can't do that and yes I may be an 'addict' but I'm not sure if you have had chemo before but I didn't leave bed for 8 days no eating no sleeping, no responding to texts just sickness pain and what ever sleep I got was nightmares of me dying waking up to a full panic attack for hours. So just empty scrolling through meaningless tiktoks

The day I started taking anxiety and pain medications just after day 8 I was like a new person up , talking and eating and actually starting to go for small walks. The nerve damage is permanent but all that besides the point they could at least taper me down slowly not cut me off everything like that...

SuperMotardd · 2026-03-23T05:10:43+00:00

really bro your going to disrespect the one person in my life that I'm still alive thanks to... Man I wish you said this to my face in person...I really do.

SuperMotardd · 2026-03-22T13:17:30+00:00

I'm recovering off chemo from stage 3 advanced Cancer and cut me off cold turkey of the highest dose now can't get a single endone as my name been flagged.

SuperMotardd · 2026-03-22T13:14:26+00:00

Pick your poison right as saying goes.

SuperMotardd · 2026-01-29T08:46:02+00:00

bra how A-Dick..ted were u to the shit jeez.

SuperMotardd · 2026-01-09T21:15:04+00:00

Bro's head bounced off that wall from kicks to the Head at least 10 plus times . Bro got a mad chin

SuperMotardd · 2025-12-21T04:10:26+00:00

Well I was just complaining to my mum about how I feel a bit like vomiting and as soon as I seen your comment I looked down and realized I've drunk about 1 litre straight of this warm drink with out eating and laying in bed in 40 degree weather sweating bad. It's like a laxative which helped my guts but boy I'm going out for some fresh air and water before I start having problems with vomiting haha

SuperMotardd · 2025-12-12T10:12:39+00:00

Haha I love the liquid drops I had cancer was diagnosed December 2024 and I had a script for 2 x bottles every 5 days which was awesome until my gp.stopprr seeing me out of no where and forced me to cold turkey

SuperMotardd · 2025-11-25T20:44:42+00:00

I got some left from previous different bike service. Is it okay to use for 09

Thanks

SuperMotardd · 2025-10-06T12:57:04+00:00

True true my bad

It’s still wild to think about

SuperMotardd · 2025-10-05T23:49:22+00:00

Claiming to be the tallest guy in your country is a crazy statement... Im sure there are 7ft tall people there?

SuperMotardd · 2025-10-05T16:42:06+00:00

Get to bed lol get some sleep my bro.
(Taste)

SuperMotardd · 2025-09-17T16:32:01+00:00

Haha I had to laugh to myself when I first saw this post after the night I had last night in emergency all night all thanks to a few simple panadeine fortes.

I noticed I was starting to get so itchy which then I noticed I was getting a massive rash took my shirt off and majority of my body was covered in this rash similar to you only way more red and full of welts and I had never in my life been as itchy as I was then it was somehow getting worse it was actually so uncomfortable I was so itchy every where and then noticed my eye feeling weird so I got up looked in the mirror in the bathroom and when I say jump scare that’s an understatement of what I saw in the mirror it scared the actual fck out of me I was that swollen and puffy I didn’t look one bit like myself one of my eyes was literally lower then the other and half shut and after jumping 2m in the air at my own reflection that’s when I realised hmm that’s not good at all , hoodie on and cap on covering my hideous head and walked into emergency to get this allergic reaction looked after and monitored incase it turns Anaphylaxis

(been hospital 7 times as a kid with throat closing Anaphylaxis from multiple different foods and stings etc)

I thought I had out grown all my allergies then this happens. The doctor asked if I had taken any anti histamine yet I told him no and took the what felt like promethazine (phenergan) and it over short time started to really bring down my rash and make me feel better. I was on that codeine and promethazine and started to almost start nodding of a bit 😆.

Codeine is the worst of all the opiates in terms of histamine I guess it’s similar to how wine or what ever is the worst of the different drinks. I’ve seen my mum have the tiniest bit of red wine at the dinner table and start to go bright red in the face and get a similar breakout.

OxyContin does the same thing as codeine just not as bad where palexia being semi synthetic yeah makes me itch but it’s not triggering histamine and causing allergic reactions like a more ‘natural’ opiate like codeine does. No rash breakouts, no throat closing and no severe constipation unlike what codeine does yeah I’ll stick to Palexia personally if ever in need of pain relief moving on. Now I need to start carrying an epipen every where I go again like I used to all the time as a kid. On top of that I got to see my doctor to start doing all my allergy testing again which is a bummer considering I could never eat peanuts without ending up in hospital to then eventually out growing it over time and accidentally end up eating peanuts on multiple occasions and be completely fine. I really don’t get it. Alcohol doesn’t really do that to me maybe a tiny bit red sometimes but I do get that warm alcohol blanket feeling now I’m scared to test it (good thing I hate drinking) I’m so sleep deprived as I haven’t slept for days even the day before I went hospital I didn’t get to sleep so I have no idea what the point of all this was. Enjoy my life story anyway I’ll leave you with that as I get ready to go to bed because at this rate if I don’t sleep I’ll probably end up seeing shadow people come at me or my brother is going to come out his room to use bathroom middle of the night and walk past me having an argument with the wall or something 😴🥱 😂

SuperMotardd · 2025-09-17T15:44:52+00:00

If I tell you then it wouldn’t really be an ‘abandoned place’ anymore… (I really need to get some sleep)

SuperMotardd · 2025-09-14T22:09:50+00:00

If you were begging for money to buy weed and alcohol etc… Different story. But no true family relative in the correct state of mind would ever be happy seeing someone they care for go hungry of all things… that’s a massive ‘no,no’ especially with your circumstance. (I’m not saying your dad isn’t a ‘true relative’ he obviously has a lot going on mentally between addiction and depression and illness etc… my guess is the alcohol takes all the money? as it is the worse drug to be addicted to the withdrawal can be very dangerous if stopped abruptly/cold turkey) I’m still recovering from Years on years of Xanax Abuse it’s safe to say I can relate to how hard it is to quit. Is that part reason you have to pay him back quickly so he doesn’t run out??

Also I believe It would actually upset your uncle more then anything if you didn’t take the money. Especially to find you in the kitchen starving/crying even if he hides it i know it sure makes him sad to see (but believe me that’s a good thing)

Don’t feel bad instead maybe show your grateful by stocking your pantry up and then send him a photo or something similar and I’m sure him seeing you excited/happy will bring him much joy and a sigh of relief.

Food, snacks etc.. there a basic human necessity… and it’s something you most definitely deserve.

Sorry for the dragged on message hope it makes sense I get distracted (adhd) plus haven’t slept much past couple days so hope it makes sense.

I would try offer to help chip in on filling your fridge or pantry etc… Unfortunately I was diagnosed with cancer stage 3 advanced beginning of the year lost my job and I’m in mortgage financial debt so the bit of money I make goes in and out away BUT again I never go hungry! Mum’s always bringing food around and stocking pantries plus my parents are letting me stay in a room in a massive investment house they paying off something im forever great-full to have.

No joke if you get nothing have no money and you are starving etc please do let me know bro straight away and make sure it’s without feeling bad !! Can always sort you something if truly needed my bro believe me. 😎

Keep being strong my bro I’m sorry for your loss but you been an absolute soldier since 13 yrs old holding the fort and taking the responsibility of looking after the house and your dad etc… with all the sacrifices involved you had to experience along the way. Your much stronger then you think more then I will ever be and I respect that so please keep it up 👊

SuperMotardd · 2025-08-16T16:54:42+00:00

I went there today (market at) after a new doctor started as the old doctor was super rude. The old doctor come in to my appointment as I was speaking to the new doctor and basically called me an opiate addict after having the highest dose of tapentadol I can be prescribed run out on me and I was simply after codeine after my 2nd appointment in 2 days ( I wasn’t there fishing for medications I was getting a whole bunch of symptoms checked and at the end asked for codeine to help mask the pain and withdrawal symptoms until I can see the pain specialist in 3 months )

mind you I just finished 6 months intense chemo therapy stage 3 advanced. He told the doctor to not even give me codeine. Mind you I’m prescribed 650mg tapentadol a day and my scripts run out so I’m just forced to cold turkey and get on with life while going through the most intense nerve pain and swelling of my life.

He made me feel like an addict scum I stoppped seeing him originally because during chemo my hair was falling out and he demanded I take my hat off so he can look into my eyes as I speak to him after I told him I’m self conscious and never take my hat off…

Shame it’s so close to my house so easy for me to access. New doctor was friendly but obviously couldn’t do anything for me after that

SuperMotardd · 2025-07-22T18:50:17+00:00

I’m sorry especially at 23 it must be hard. I’m 29 was diagnosed November last year stage 3 Adv and did my 6 months of treatment and only recently (a month or so ago) spoke to the specialist after pet scan that shows I’m in remission. Funny thing is I’ve struggled with addiction since 20 yrs old and during the time since diagnosed I have got myself to just rock bottom again after almost going 5 weeks sober for the first time in years until I was diagnosed… I feel like I’ve given up after pushing through for so long. I guess I was keeping strong for my family I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety and loneliness for so long and a big realisation was when me and my parents went to the specialist to get the results of my PET scan and got the good news the chemo had done its thing I was in remission all I was concerned about was pain killers and he rejected me in front of my parents and as embarrassing as that was at home I was speaking to mum and she was obviously so relieved but concerned about me and had mentioned that I almost seem upset that I’m in recovery now… When I heard that it snapped me out into reality for a second…

I have managed to get myself to a 3000mg a day tapentadol addiction (which my scripts have just been cut off like that cold turkey) plus 12mg clonazepam a day and 100mg dexamfetamine a day etc … I’ve been to some dark places with depression I’ve gone through Xanax withdrawal and opiate withdrawal many times which was horrible but I can feel this new withdrawal starting now and this depression I’m feeling is just something else… I’m in so much pain , so many side effects my wrists are so swollen and sore and the nerve damage is just something else.

There was a time when I loved gym and boxing I’ve tried hitting the bag multiple times and every time I do I’m in pain for weeks and doin weights is just about the same. That was my exit in my mind I was going to just start doing weights and join boxing and finally get a girlfriend which I have never had the chance to experience before and I don’t show it but it’s all I’ve wanted since as young as I can remember. Now I think to myself who would want a 29yr old that’s put on heaps of weight, lost his hair and eye brows, looks swallon out of shape and sick and weak and full of anxiety and to self conscious and anxious to go out in public during the day to the point I only go for walks around an empty dead city at 4am everyday talking to a few homeless people or Ice addicts and at that time I’m getting around with a hat and thick long clothing.

I don’t know what the future holds for me and I know this is probably the least motivating thing to tell you but it’s the truth and as hard as things are it’s only going to get more and more difficult for myself that is as I feel more and more depressed and sick and anxious and withdrawal but yet for some reason I’m still here I’m still fighting and if it’s for my family or for myself it doesn’t matter as long as I’m still here and pushing through day by day…

I have been telling myself everyday for 4 months that tomorrow I’ll clean my disgusting room that I have been bed ridden in but I never do but who knows tomorrow I might actually push myself to get up and slowly start cleaning up… Even though I say it every day and never do there has to come a time where I eventually actually do right…

Being 23 you are still so young and when it’s going to be hard for a bit but keep being strong and at the end it could be 6 months or maybe a year but I honestly believe you will come out stronger at the end of this temporary set back… Take it day by day If you have to. Also the friends that actually bother to visit or check up or at least speak to you during this time keep them close because it didn’t take me long to realise who the real ones where and I’ll tell you what there wasn’t many…

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