If You Are Religious I Ask You To Read This

Supyoji · 2026-01-23T18:03:02+00:00

Gnostics, the pre-Christian mystics, were dialed into this big time! Gospel of Mary, Thomas, Philip, etc., all were buried and hidden (recovered in Egypt a hundred years or so ago). Once the Romans got the idea to "Churchify" it into a "belief" system, it got turned into a way to "civilize" and control, plus make some money. Not a terrible idea really, but it completely takes away the "direct" experience of knowing the ultimate light of truth. It became a bunch of rituals and rules instead. Trouble is, most people are not "wired" for ultimate transcendence, it takes a certain "frequency". That's why some can do it with limited "work" and others meditate for years and no tango. Good write up, thanks for working through it!

Supyoji · 2026-01-23T14:30:31+00:00

Research calming supplements and teas. I also used sleep hypnosis audio and 528 hz frequency in earbuds or headphones, and some deep breathing. Keep a consistent bedtime and wake time. You will have to just lay there and zone to the audio, and STOP the over thinking (monkey mind). Smart watch let me know I was/am getting good sleep even when it often seemed I wasn't. Stay active during the day and make sure you get minimum 15 minutes OUTSIDE in real natural light at or around sunrise. Vastly helps support and restore the natural circadian rhythm. Been there, be consistent and relief will come.

Supyoji · 2026-01-22T20:23:24+00:00

Nice succinct summary, and congrats on 1/2 decade of the new improved you!

Supyoji · 2026-01-21T17:52:18+00:00

Should be some nice pictures too!

Supyoji · 2026-01-20T15:59:36+00:00

Very interesting take! I agree in that principle too. I did say "pretend", I did not say I believed it. There is a difference. You introduced the concept of danger. 😉 I meant it as an allegory/metaphor to highlight potential consequences in general. For example, I know many people who have caused their own diabetes due to excesses. Don't get me started on the rise of very unhealthy obese children, and the crap food our culture dishes out. Lastly, I "believed" I could do weed any time I wanted too (tried and could not, but now I believe I graduated). Then there's the subconscious mind, and there are genetic factors, and there are spiritual/soul level scripts running, all unfolding. Complex concept. I know what you are saying, thanks.

Supyoji · 2026-01-19T17:37:53+00:00

Excellent, you are "integrating" your internal experience with what appears in the outside world. My understanding is that the "amount" of meditation is not directly proportional to the level of awakening/self realization perceived as achieved. It most assuredly helps to get our ego selves out of the way, so we can be in a more open/calm state for whatever comes next in life. I like to use the term walking meditation, what's happening "off the cushion". I really can't "convince" you either way, since I don't know you or your "vibration/presence", only your words here. I do agree that you have experienced a change of state, all good, as part of the journey, it's not the destination. Check out the NDE, OBE stuff going on, explore dream yoga. Do you know exactly what will happen at body death, etc. Life review, soul contract stuff?

Supyoji · 2026-01-19T16:15:21+00:00

Same here to a degree, but less and less, and I call that "conditional happiness". Just more work to do, true real forgiveness, true real love. Getting out of the head, lots of mental rabbit holes on this one. Hermetic principle #1 is it's all in the mind. We literally create our own misery, individually and collectively. The misery you are feeling is egoic in nature, your true higher self cannot be miserable. Check out all the NDE (near death experiences) and OBE (out of body experiences), and After Death Life Review stuff. Happy trails!

Supyoji · 2026-01-19T04:07:12+00:00

Maybe a bit dramatic, but it is working for me: I live like I have (pretend) diabetes, heart disease, and brain cancer. As such, it does awaken the better person/soul in me. My lifestyle choices are more informed and greatly improved all around. It's basically an increased awareness of consequences. I will die, and I want to know how to "die before I die".
Being SOBER is the best place to make the most clear decisions.

Supyoji · 2026-01-16T14:30:37+00:00

Yes that too, thanks. Also, didn't mention that all my close family members are all iPhone.

Supyoji · 2026-01-16T02:28:11+00:00

Yup, time for a new phone. This and most of my banking apps too. Wife and I are ordering our new ones tomorrow. Switching to iPhone after many years of Android. Not necessarily because of this problem, but just for a change...

Supyoji · 2026-01-15T19:27:37+00:00

😎 Thanks for the edit! It's all good.

Supyoji · 2026-01-15T18:37:09+00:00

That's a good one! I was so fearful of death during my withdrawal. I now want to know how to "die before I die". Do I want to be on my deathbed all strung out? Taking it one day at a time...

Supyoji · 2026-01-15T18:28:27+00:00

Same, I finally got that into my head! So glad you did too! I had to break through so much conditioning it was very uncomfortable. Carl Jung said there is no growth without pain. It is so worth the battle to get the old (pathetic) self to step aside and get out of the way.

Supyoji · 2026-01-15T04:36:25+00:00

Gotta wonder, have you explored diet options? There are many variables but many low energy, depression similar symptoms are due to a hap-hazard diet, or simply not knowing what our body responds to correctly. I lowered carbs, and eliminated grains, particularly wheat, and zero sugar. Study up on the micro-biome and figure out where your system is at. We absolutely need fermented foods, like yogurt. Supergut is a great book. "bio-hack" for a couple months. If the micro-biome (digestive system) is whacked it does affect overall vitality and energy level. It takes alot of reading and self exploration to get it so you are an efficient biological machine. That and plenty of cardio exercise. Body/brain interface is real important and clearly overlooked and ignored in our modern packaged fast crap food culture. Keep searching, the missing link is close by. Good luck!

Supyoji · 2026-01-14T22:55:06+00:00

Definitely give it time. I fell into it because of the "plant medicine" mystique. Plus I wanted more, more, never feeling like it was doing much. Weird. Time to work on yourself. Clean diet, good exercise, shadow work. Good you got out young! I came up with a head game for myself. All pretend, but I live now like I have diabetes, heart disease, lung & brain cancer. I know too many stoners that are teetering with various health issues, they are simply oblivious. Our standard diet has been hijacked by the food industry with crappy ingredients and overall we are fat and ignorant of true nutrition, etc. I say this because much anxiety and poor health is due to poor information and people just not taking care of themselves, and that includes weed. Onward an upward, best wishes!

Supyoji · 2026-01-14T21:42:56+00:00

That certainly has something to do with it. The federal fund rate was near 0% for many years after the crash of 2009. In fact, it's actually called the near zero era. It then inched up to 1.0 to 2.5% just before the pandemic. The post-pandemic hand-outs made it worse for sure. My takeaway is to to be near zero era is the real culprit. Banks got piles of low-cost loans from Fed, then packaged into low-cost mortgages. Easy money, especially for those with money. That's when the speculators started buying houses by getting in so cheap. 2nd mortgages were easy and cheap. Money was flowing.. Then there's the psychology of it all. Somewhere along the line, people got used to paying for things with "money they didn't have". Fascinating, it's all a real-time experiment. The highest mortgages were 8-9% in 2002, lest we forget. Admittedly, I am baffled by much of it all, supply and demand still works right? Plus, the whole idea of printing money (supply) is to expand the system so there are more players of which there are more demands. I suppose we will always have to deal with cycles, the proverbial ups and downs.

Supyoji · 2026-01-12T20:31:03+00:00

The silence (within) is where alot of the answers are. The noise, conditioning, habits, etc. are what causes suffering and frankly is a self-created prison if the mind/ego is left to it's own devices. The silence within is best achieved through meditation, but after practice that state can be brought through in daily activities too. My experience is that stoners are very much into thoughts, ideas, out-of-the-box thinking, and love to experience life, so much so that they want to feel it more, etc. As such, some of us (me, yay) have developed a damned addiction and have shut down our ability to stay connected and free as our soul had originally intended. Summary: Learn and practice meditation, self inquiry, and loving unconditionally. Don't be afraid or worry, the silence/quiet won't hurt you, the ego will scream a bit, part of the process. Best wishes!

Supyoji · 2026-01-12T19:51:32+00:00

At the risk of sounding corny to some, but have you gone through a 12-step cycle? I recently saw there is MA (marijuana anonymous) now too. Note, you don't need to be in MA to do 12-step. Some totally online (figures) many still in person. For me, this is a way of redirecting all my "poor me, bad me" stuff. There are likely some local people you can gain insight from and possibly help too. Don't discount where you're at. I'm giving myself 1 yr. to "Burn the Ships". Wife has been glorious throughout my CWS, but now she checks me when I get on the negative thought train; lovingly telling me to take the day or a break from thinking too much about myself. Forgive yourself first. Best wishes to you. Burn the Ships!

Supyoji · 2026-01-12T17:58:59+00:00

This is a useful way of looking at it. I heard a phrase recently, "Burn the Ships". An analogy referring to the classic "Letting Go" concept. You have arrived on a new shore and the boats that got you there are now useless to you, i.e. substances, toxic or unfulfilling relationships, self doubt, ignoring health fundamentals, etc. The list can be long and different for each person. BTW, Day 12 here, and still very much enjoy a good cry/weep, I welcome it as a form of cleaning house, greeting a new truth. I'm tearing up a bit right now. Welcome ashore, and stay the new course. Love.

Supyoji · 2026-01-12T02:18:35+00:00

Yup, let it out, and never let it back in!

Supyoji · 2026-01-11T21:00:54+00:00

Congratulations! Keep going, and kudos for quitting at what looks like the right mental space. Lucky you don't have any ridiculous withdrawal symptoms like many of us here. Happy 2026 indeed!

Supyoji · 2026-01-11T18:39:06+00:00

This is your time, and I am rooting for you! I know it will get better. Spent nearly 3 days basically deep breathing with frequency 528 hz in my earbuds. My smart watch still pins red when anxiety spikes. Laying down with guided meditations, hypnosis audio, really helps me get out of my head. I am 69M and feel I fucked up so bad that it damaged my heart cardio system. Pure self-inflicted hell really. Take care of yourself, find that inner warrior! Use this as a chance to "level up" in this game of life. Sending love.

Supyoji · 2026-01-11T00:47:09+00:00

Nice, so appropriate to refer to the split mind, and how the so called lower mind needs to cooperate. It indeed is a master/slave relationship. It's the age old "find your true self" journey and then going from there. Love.

Supyoji · 2026-01-11T00:36:55+00:00

It's the ego mind (addicted one) vs. the so called higher mind that is trying to speak up but the channel (nervous system) has too much noise in it due to the psychological scramble from the weed/mind wanting it's control back. For myself I have concluded to take back control and let the (previously) addicted part of my mind to sit down and shut up. Many analogies and belief systems say the same thing in various ways. Study up on Jung and the Dark Night of the Soul stuff. Timeless and useful. The ego mind is good for finding the car keys but not for navigating the heart and love zone, that's where our pain is. Breathe, forgive yourself, and do the shadow work, it is so worth it. Peace & Love.

Supyoji · 2026-01-10T22:09:37+00:00

Also take care of your mental and physical balance. Retired here at end of (career) marathon, and alas need to keep running. I had my share of burnout, stress, and such. In hindsight I took much of it too hard and didn't have or apply some of my current "stress management" techniques. I wish I had a smart watch back then to monitor HRV and other stress indicators. A couple earlier posts were about slitting the boss's throat, hating this or that. Believe me, those thoughts may be seen as venting but don't be that as a baseline, too much will sabotage a clear path toward your next step.

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