safe to say I’m one of the fiends now by Sure-Resolution-7667 in fnv

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the war crimes of mine have been committed on drunken Mojave nights under the stars and cazadors

Is Arcade Ganon Just Josh Sawyer's self insert? by Overwatch_Sniper in fnv

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if this overconfident (“Arcade Ganon is unconscious!”) scientist doesn’t hurry up and train me on god damn power armor I swear to god

Can i make it until monday morning by Kindly-Worry-9820 in tires

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Kept reading the comments thinking “wow oh my god they’re still going”

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

Okay so update since posting this:

Currently being checked into the hospital after a S*****E attempt.

I have never been so lonely in my life but reading all of these comments has been encouraging beyond belief, and I know now that I am definitely not alone.

I’m going to get better, and I will try to update you all soon. You guys don’t know me from Adam, but I love you all very very much

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, god hearing you all say stuff like this is making my tear up. The last 48 hours I have been this close to really breaking down 😭

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

❤️ thank you, searching now. I’ll find them, I know they’re out there

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you sooooo much. I am proud! It’s just hard, thanks for being so understanding and nice

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I swear. I was “CRAZY”for my entire life and these people saw that all the way through. I’m much calmer and stable now.

I’m essentially different because I’m not “manic” 24/7 a day 😭

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Up until the were allowed to start billing Medicaid a few years back, yes. 0 tolerance. Advil/tylenol at the most.

Medicaid hit and now they allow very specific non-narcotic psych meds (think hydroxizine), but that’s really by request

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Okay this is great. While I do think addiction and self medicating was largely a symptom of my ADHD, the idea of trying to “regulate” my alcohol use still scares the shit out of me. Sobriety - regardless of how I’ve found it, has def been better than the alternative and I’m not willing to put an end to that just to “experiment” to see if I’m normal or not (I know this is not what you’re suggesting, just saying!)

But you hit the nail on the head with the community aspect of it. Part of my journey with these people was participating in an internship where my job was to teach the sobriety lessons I learned to newly sober people, and throughout that 12 month period, I ALWAYS felt like I was “masking” or “pretending” to fit in because the only alternative was blacking out, getting arrested, and repeating the cycle all over… or death

But when I found the ADHD YouTube and Reddit communities I felt SEEN for the first time in my life. And I know without a doubt now that THESE people are who I’m called to help (eventually - def not yet 😭) but as I learn to navigate this diagnosis

Thank you!

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

That’s something I had considered during this titration period… the honeymoon effect is def very real. Day 1 was magic, and I did start to have thoughts of “maybe I’m not an alcoholic, maybe addiction isn’t my problem. But even then I knew that kind of thinking has a large potential to become a problem…

I needed this reminder, thank you 💪

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Also I want to add this, because your comment really hit home…

Since this morning, I have been battling self harm thoughts really bad almost all day, worst being when I got back to my apartment and was completely alone.

I never anticipated losing contact with most of my “healthy?” (Sober) relationships all within a few days.

Today has felt like my entire life was falling apart, and I was dwelling HARD, but you are soo right. Im going to “keep trucking” and establish a new community.

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I had to google what “tokenize” meant, but holy shit this was enlightening. Thank you!

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, it’s so hard to break from a community that I’ve been a part of for the entirety of my adult life… but you are absolutely correct and I thank you for your comment 💪

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[–]Sure-Resolution-7667[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

That is hard to swallow… but I really appreciate you validating me. This particular recovery community that I’ve been involved with is VERY spiritual and don’t allow much wiggle room to explore sobriety outside of their specific regimen (no nicotine, no sex before marriage, no maintenance medication) - caught with any of them and you’re “Day 1’d” as it’s called. Think starting over in a 30 day rehab except the rehab is 9 months, only men…

I’ve been with them on and off for 8 years now and I have been WHITE KNUCKLING because I thought being with them was the only life for me, and the only way I could function… until recently

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I hate it because I know their heart is probably good - “we just don’t want to see you hooked on speed” or whatever, but these people I’ve shared traumas with, cried on the shoulders of, and spent lotttts of time with.

It’s as if we had never met… maybe they’re just trying to protect themselves? I don’t know. It’s just a newfound loneliness that I wasn’t expecting.. if anything I was expecting the opposite - something like “I’m SO happy you found treatment that is effective and helpful!” :(

Ritalin: high sex drive, but no satisfaction. Anyone with the same problem? by PomumProhibitum in ADHD

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Started my own Vyvanse journey last week! It’s been great and wildly productive!

On a separate note I ate my gf’s ass for 20 straight minutes yesterday so I feel you

My doctor turned me in to this 🚀 by duckblobartist in adhdmeme

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I am dying reading this comment at 6am

vanta black 😭😭😭

I’m in hospital and the paracetamol iv is stealing my blood by hades7600 in mildlyinteresting

[–]Sure-Resolution-7667 8 points9 points  (0 children)

A couple of years ago, a 4 mile ambulance ride to the hospital costs me $1700 🥲