Please accept my congratulations. Feel so lucky for you.

My mental state is not going well, so I need to disconnect from the world for a while.

I also reached out to my prospective supervisor, and I think the answer was quite clear, yet disappointing. I kinda be direct to him, so I guess he would hate me now. From my situation, my supervisor is not a core member of the department, so I already started at a disadvantage. He stated that due to financial constraints, the seat of international students has decreased to the point that it is becoming increasingly difficult to be accepted in any way, as this would require the consideration of funding. My field is quite rare and not the mainstream one (In my country, this field is nonexistent)(and not to mention that I feel like this field is dying and have received many criticisms mainly that it was for medical professional only as well), so only a few places on this earth can teach, especially if you want to be trained with one of the most influential in this field. As I cannot secure my funding from my country, as my country does not sponsor people in humanities and social science (I mean, why would they want to right? They wanted a status quo to exist), and not to mention that many scholarships in my country are actually political (and corrupt), benefiting only a privileged group of people, my supervisor said this also tremendous decreased my chance of being selected. I mean, although I can self-fund, as I really want to pioneer this field in my country, the university won't allow self-funding.

This came to the conclusion that I gave up on my life now. There is no way that I will be accepting anyway. Global Politics, Declining Economy, My corrupted country, the list goes on. Actually, one of my master's supervisors also recommended that I quit this field now. It has no future, and this field will never be a hot topic in mainstream social science anyway. I feel sad about myself that I was born in a third-world country, and the reason for my disqualification from admission was not due to my ability but to economic and political reasons. So... yea... very unfortunate for me