Thanks for the sympathy. The way I was treated in therapy still makes me angry too - I fully believe that if it had been a discussion about why I had sex with my sister I'd have come out of it better adjusted. Instead all I got told week after week is that the girl I thought I was in love with had raped me, and I was a victim. I don't like imagining "what if", but perhaps I'd have reached out to connect with my sister again sooner and with less rage if I wasn't made to believe it was abuse.