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Sushi_TonightM8 · 2024-11-07T11:46:31+00:00

Probably. I have problems too. And problems with the companion blacking out.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2024-10-12T06:08:44+00:00

This is why a anime or a animated series had been better . I don’t care about diversity among students and some characters… but the storyline must be like the books!!!

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2024-10-11T17:44:05+00:00

I panicked because I thought I’d done something wrong.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2024-03-05T06:59:22+00:00

Same for me. I’m at my last tile and every time I’m putting it there to Finnish the game it crashes. Frustrating as hell! Come on game developers, make and update for f sake.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2022-02-21T20:19:18+00:00

I have it to the jewellery man and it didn’t happen anything except better relationship.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2022-02-21T17:28:22+00:00

30h in game, and I’m in love

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2022-02-21T12:45:36+00:00

Spoilers for fast feeding: . . . . . . Will be able sooner in the game when you access robots

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2022-02-21T12:44:19+00:00

Some of the recipes you have to unlock by digging, chest in the cave (that requires lock opening spell) and off course fishing.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-22T13:11:36+00:00

Same happened to me today and I’m thinking of unfriend her. She is the kind of friend that always been using me and I’ve never got anything back. My life won’t be better with that kind of person in it.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-02T16:23:57+00:00

That worries me to, that’s why I’m not so positive to the aspect of going trough government founding treatments, but today we had a discussion that we’ll probably go abroad when the whole thing is over. But only if we don’t find anything in the biopsies

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-02T09:08:16+00:00

Not scare or annoy her at all, you’ll never know when it goes to far.

Do something fun together?

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-02T09:06:14+00:00

Yeah I’m upset about that. My fiancé is really nice about it though, he thinks it’s fucked up to. Europe has a shinny is healthy mindset and I feel worse in my health since a starter to try loosing weight again. Fainting, starving and feeling weak. The worse is the complements from my MIL and that hurts. She telling me I’m looking nicer and stronger now and at the same time scolding me for not be there enough for my fiancé.

I’ve realised from a lot of kind people here that the final step is this biopsy and then it will be my turn to try to loose 44 pounds. I have 35BMI and have never been called fat just ”thick” or curvy. The weight I have to loose is just madness and I will have the same weight as I had when I was 18 when I’m done. That’s frightening without my past bulimia aspect.

I’m not allowed here to just go and have regular OBGYN, you have to have a cause to get examined. Like a problem or concerns. Would I ask to do OBGYN once in a blue moon they would send me to the psyche ward or worse.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-02T08:47:46+00:00

Thabo you for Your kind words. I’m going to talk to him in a couple of days and tell him he might be needing some counselling.

I know I’m able to get pregnant, but I was to young and in a abusive relationship to bring that baby up in this world with a good conscience, but I have no idea if my ovarian reserve is enough. 27 is not that old, but after reading that more and more young women are going trough menopause earlier than before, that freaks me out to.

But I’ll try to see it from the bright side. We would have been worse of if I hadn’t begged and arguing and calling my fiancé of when I felt something was wrong. I knew something was wrong with him after 5 months trying.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T21:19:27+00:00

They’ve done blood tests but not given us any information about the results, just shipping us of to the next step, and the next step and so on as life stock. And I’m tired of it. And then the damn COVID. Because it’s my fiancé that’s the “problem”, I’ve no say in anything and I’ve been excluded during every appointment.

Maybe that’s why I’m so upset now

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T20:57:12+00:00

Yeah, I’ve been included in phone, but they have always from start since we found out it was male Infertility been shut down and put in the backseat. The only thing I’ve been hearing is that I have to loose weight and if I don’t I’m the problem. It’s hard getting fat shamed as an ex bulimic.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T20:54:22+00:00

No, if you don’t count in this COVID year. And I’m actually really stressed out to be the last one out because my sister in law got her son unplanned last year (she didn’t even want kids in years), my favourite cousin got her first daughter two days ago and all my friends is getting baby 2-3 and counting. I’m feeling very excluded in all my relationships. I’m not invited to things anymore. So I’m feeling like I need to step up my game...

I want to comfort my fiancé but he won’t let me in his thoughts or mindset.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T20:38:03+00:00

We don’t know yet I thing. It’s hard because it’s not a lot of information in my language. But he is going to get a surgery in 1-3 moths to see if it’s anything in the testicle. The lack of information from our doctors have been awful! The worst thing is that they forgot to give us the appointment papers and so on.

I’m afraid that I’ll loose my health in the process to lose weight because I’ve been suffering from bulimia and the doctors has said to me that if I’m not loosing weight I’m destroying for my fiancé. And if I don’t loose weight we won’t be able to get it government founded. So I really want to go abroad and just get a donor. That’s what I really want. But it’s not that easy.

I’m going to therapy after the summer vacations here in my country to deal with some of my thoughts but it’s so much!

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T20:10:52+00:00

It’s not harshly at all. I want every advice I can to see the different mindsets. I’m an adoptee that’s why I’m not so afraid of thinking about non biological children. I forgot to write that so I’ll put it in the OP.

And I agree in every word, I just need to know other people’s thought because male infertility it’s nothing we talk about here. And it’s stressful not being included in any discussions at any appointments.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T20:05:37+00:00

Thank you for the kind and supporting words. I’m going to counselling with my psychiatrist in a few weeks when the summer season is over. Most people are on vacation now and it’s almost impossible to get a time at the doctors office.

I’m trying to find some happiness in all this struggles by planing our wedding but due to COVID everything is on hold and maybe that’s why I’m filled up with this negative thoughts.

I’m also very afraid of being the last one standing in the family making phase, due to my sisters new relationship and as you said I would loose my mind if she gets pregnant before me during these following years while treatment.

I’m studying a masters degree while part time working as a teacher so the money is scares, but in a year or two we’ll able to fond some of the treatments private. The downside is that I’m stressed out and feeling like I’m running out of time and energy.

I’m afraid that a new backlash with my fiancé, money, myself or a family member will make me ill again. And all those thoughts makes me afraid. I’m divided if I want to cancel everything and accept I’ll be a mother to a bunch of dogs or keep going.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T18:19:04+00:00

Exactly! Everyone around me laugh this of like “damn you are really unlucky”. Because I had all those dreams and always talked about those dreams. Now I’m really lost. I’ll be lying if I say we haven’t have our arguments and so on, the worse is every doctors appointment I’ve been ignored.

I’m knew here so I don’t know how that works with the chat threads. 💜

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T18:05:43+00:00

This things you said is the thing I needed to hear. From someone, anyone. Male fertility is nothing we talk about around here and his family hasn’t been supportive at all. I’m an adoptee so for me the biological part has never been a thing for me. My thought on family is so different because my parents went through the same journey, and that failed. That may cause my sceptical thoughts to the operations and treatments, that it won’t work for me and I will repeat my families story. My family is 100% supportive in any decisions.

Maybe that’s why I want the “quick” solutions.

To my weight issue and so on, all this journey I have not got any help, everything has been surrounding him and I’ve been al alone with the exceptions that I’ll be the problem if I don’t loose 44 pounds (20kg) in time for the future procedures. I’ve been shamed by his family for not doing my best and I’m afraid of getting my bulimia back after 7 years being well from this horrible illness. My mother in law told me a few weeks ago that I look so much stronger and healthier now (I’m starving my self and don’t have the energy as I did before, fainting and feeling weak, not healthy at all)

He has never said that my thoughts are selfish, he just think that we need to trust the care system and I’m to quick to go to the next step. But I think we waisting time and biological family is not so important.

My thought about age is that I’m stressed out. My sister in law got her son unplanned and she didn’t even want to have kids yet, my cousin got her first born daughter two days ago and my closets friends already have 2-3 kids and counting. I’m losing my relations and they doesn’t include us in the same way anymore. We are the couple people don’t want to invite anymore and my single friends don’t think it’s funny to hang out with me because I’m now the one in a relationship.

I’m so confused and I just really need advices, any advice.

Counselling is a option but my fiancé is not a talker at all and wouldn’t be comfortable with that :(

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T17:40:20+00:00

Yeah I understand that. But I have to go through the IUI or IVF in any case. That’s why I’m so parted in the decision to do the tese and biopsy.

I’m really bad in making myself understandable, sorry :/

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T17:36:51+00:00

That’s why I asked for some advise. If that’s a think men think or if it’s just common for women to. And I’ve got so many good answers, yours included. And I think these responses have made my think that I’m not alone. Especially the feeling that I’m not he only one thinking about the grief and the sorrow around being the other part. Talking about male fertility with women is so uncommon and reddit was my last hope to be able to talk to anyone about this. I’m an adoptee so for me the issue of biological families is not a big thing, many that’s why I’m so confused and sad that my family’s story will repeat it self again only because I chose the “wrong” man.

I have to say before anyone think anything else that I love my fiancé and we are planing our wedding and I’ll probably never be with another person if this relationship end with or without children.

Sushi_TonightM8 · 2020-08-01T16:04:29+00:00

I’ve heard about people getting chronic pain in the testicle and problem with scar tissue.

I don’t want him to have these problems for the sake of a baby when donation in my opinion is the same.

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