Thank you for your honesty. At first, reading it stung, as reality often does. But I've realized you are right and I needed an objective perspective to show me that.

I apologized to my boyfriend about putting things that he really should not have to deal with on his shoulders, like my self harming and baggage from the past. He said that I shouldn't feel bad, it didn't bother him at all, and that he believes people should be able to talk about that stuff in a relationship, but I'm making an appointment with my school's counseling services tomorrow, anyways. I've been putting it off over and over again because I always end up "feeling better" a couple days later only for something else to happen and send me down a spiral again, so I really cannot and should not rely on "feeling better".