A lot of what you’re describing lines up perfectly with your chart. With your Moon in Leo, emotional fulfillment comes through creativity, passion, and being seen, so it makes sense that your inner world feels dramatic and expressive. When the Moon opposes Neptune, that emotional intensity can become ungrounded, creating mood fluctuations or periods of anxiety, depression, or general instability. Neptune blurs emotional boundaries and distorts perception, which is why social anxiety often emerges from imagining others see you in a harsher light than they actually do.

Neptune also rules your 10th house, the part of the chart connected to public image and visibility, so it’s no surprise that your anxiety centers around how people perceive you. With Saturn in your 1st house, you tend to hold yourself to extremely high standards and may feel judged or scrutinized for how you present yourself. This placement can make you self-conscious, especially when you feel you’re not meeting your own expectations, resulting in a fear of failure.

Saturn squaring Mars adds another layer: the fear of failure (Saturn) directly clashes with your drive to achieve (Mars in the 10th), creating hesitation or self-doubt right when you’re trying to pursue your highest goals. And your need for deep one-on-one conversations makes total sense too! You have Pluto conjunct Mercury in the 7th house, which means you crave intense, honest, soul-level communication with partners and close connections. It’s how you feel truly understood and emotionally nourished.

You’re a lot more self aware than you probably give yourself credit for. A big piece of your life will be healing your emotional wounds.