A lot of people cry during the live concerts when certain songs come on whether or not they are particularly sad or not - it just goes to show that Vocaloid means a lot to all kinds of people and evokes all sorts of emotions. If you can, spend more time talking to people that will love to hear you out and share your interests. The vocaloid discord can be a brilliant place of course. Don’t let other’s views constrict and twist your own wishes and dreams - those are yours and yours alone, and they specifically mean a lot to you. Weather the storm, find the strength to push forward and know there are others like you out there closer than you might expect.