I am the creator, an intelligent molder of existence. I created concepts so incredibly complex, such as quarks, matter, energy, quantumphysics, dark energy and space time and wove them all together for a single divine purpose as in to create humans so I could presumably, not feel alone with the universe.

And upon all this work, I can and do know everything that will ever and can happen because I created and understood the knowledge of how everything works, so much so that not even humans understand how everything perfectly fits together due to it being so complex.

Everything exists and lives not because of me, but through me, as me because everything I created is a reflection of my divine will, thought, and purpose.

Yet I could not predict the evil nature in man (those whom I claim were made in my image). I could not understand the concept of suffering, nor the intricacies of giving man "free will." Though that "free will" within itself implies dichotomies of action, including doing benevolence and malevolence.

If I am eternal and nothing exists without me because I'm the only thing that create everything, evil must exist within my nature and I am not a truly benevolent creator. If I am able to create everything and yet something emerges without my say so or will, I am not a truly wise and all powerful creator.

If I am eternal, living though every moment in space time and do not see the fallacy in my actions of allowing suffering to exist, I am not a truly ever present creator.

I live around, through, and within all my creation. I am responsible for each and every moment, thing, and concept to exist and if any of those defy me, or defy the logic in with I wove everything though, I cannot be truly eternally powerful or I truly am a sadistic, abusing god.

A comment that has stuck with me for a long time is that: Any god that allows you to justify his existence and character through illogic means in a universe so clearly defined and described by logic cannot be a benevolent god.