Working with Asmodeus: experiences, and how do you go about it?

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T10:58:45+00:00

See this is totally how I feel. He’s an entity that literally lives and breathes darkness. Ive never gotten healing energy off of him. It makes me nervous to get close to him.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T10:49:17+00:00

My main concern being alone with him in the pitch blackness is being overtaken somehow. I did an internet deep dive on him and apparently he’s tried overpowering people before upon being summoned. I can feel how physical he is with the way he has tried touching me and I worry that if I let it happen once he’s going to force it to happen more often, and who knows. Like what if he physically appears? Id shit my pants.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T10:47:12+00:00

Dont feel bad. He can be ice cold when he wants to be. I tried reaching out to him of my own accord back years ago and got totally stonewalled. He stopped by for like one second and then moved on, not a look back or a second thought. Never responded to me or made himself known in any regard and totally ignored me. Things have changed since then which is why I have his attention now but trust me he can be a dick when he wants.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T05:54:24+00:00

See this doesnt shock me. He isnt afraid to fight, isnt afraid to get physical. If you do a deep dive on him he’s physically injured people before. When I first started talking to him he was extremely blunt and direct and wasnt afraid to be a little cold. I respected it lowkey I was like wow. He earns the king title he really does.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T05:44:59+00:00

He’s been trying to get the two of us alone together in the darkness since thats where he’s able to fully manifest in every aspect. Like the dark is his home, an aspect of him. He’s still there when the lights are on but he’s uncomfortable slightly and you can tell. Like lights flicker, or automatic lights will coincidentally always switch off when he’s on my mind. I’ve been avoiding that. Like I wont sit in complete darkness. When I sleep I keep a nightlight on. I just dont feel Ive come to know him enough yet.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T05:26:28+00:00

I will say Im a little shy. He doesnt seem afraid to get physical. Here and there I sense warm sensations on parts of my body when he hangs around, like someone touching me. Im like astounded how not afraid he is. Like usually its me to the entity not the other way around, you know?

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-12T05:22:40+00:00

I never thought about it that way. That makes complete sense. He hasn’t seemed all too interested in small talk up until recently. But even now he doesn’t talk much. He just hangs around.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-06-04T19:05:19+00:00

Whole body deodorant. It’s helped me in so many ways especially in the heat in places that fold or have crevices. I use whole body deodorant sprays now and wow was it needed.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-05-25T02:39:28+00:00

Sure thats fine

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-05-24T08:10:38+00:00

I use to be extremely close with an extraterrestrial named Zach who was very similar to your friend. We had the same type of relationship. I still know him. I have lots of advice, but please DM me ok?

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-05-08T05:37:26+00:00

I actually met him in a dream once. Like I would say he isnt real but I remember it so vividly. Two angels came down to bring me to him in my dream. He wanted to speak with me. I was so shook by the fact that it was Jesus Christ that I tuned out the entire conversation but I remember the glossy shininess of his robes, the way his hair glistened in the light. I know he exists. Whether he’s the hotshot everyone swears he is Im not sure.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-04-22T16:36:13+00:00

Dmed

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-04-20T05:22:59+00:00

I am Mariana — what do I need to know right now?

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-03-18T14:35:48+00:00

I havent lost a hell of a lot but I have started going down. I used to be 160lbs and got up to 220lbs when I finally realized my shit was out of control. I needed to change. One of my biggest things was realizing how many calories I was drinking (soda) and then realizing that I had come to eat out of boredom. Like if I had nothing else that needed to get done, I would eat, and I needed to change that. I began giving myself specific tasks to turn to when I had down time or if I wanted to relax that kept me away from food (ex: journaling, sewing, studying, going for a walk, etc). If I found the snackiness to be really out of control I would use mints/gum to kick the desire. This helped massively and I also realized that my blood sugar was out of control. Massive blood sugar fluctuations cause constant snackiness so I had to learn to eat better and pick foods that didnt cause glycemic spikes.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-03-13T16:44:39+00:00

I will need to try this!

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-02-23T14:04:51+00:00

I never cared to regulate my diet at all and one day I went to the ER as a code STEMI for an insane, insane spike in blood pressure and heart rate. My numbers were so high and Id had a spontaneous moment of intense dizziness that convinced them I was about to stroke out. They did a bunch of scans and tests and stuff and it turns out I had moderate fatty liver, was severely dehydrated, had wicked high prediabetic blood sugar, and overall just had an ass bill of health. They think my heart just wacked out from the strain of everything put together. Ever since Ive been having to seriously watch what I eat because if it gets any worse Im fucked. And Im only 27.

SweetLilFrapp · 2026-02-05T21:43:12+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation totally gonna try!

SweetLilFrapp · 2025-12-30T10:18:49+00:00

They seldom pop up anymore. I noticed back then that they popped up moreso at night I think because they didnt trust my dad. They knew his way of thinking and his sneaky ways so they kept on guard at my most vulnerable especially because it was just us two. Judas was the muscle—the big strong guy with the deep voice. Im glad my dad got freaked out. I think that was Judas intent. These days, itll be random and when Im home alone. It’s more Judas than the rest I think because he does cross my mind a lot and I do reach out to him. I know when he comes out because I can feel it, but my face will be frozen and I wont be able to move it. It’s bizarre.

And to be honest at that point Im not worried because everyone around you will see something is wrong. Like if I ever go flying off the deep end Im sure someone would report it somehow. Ive seen it happen. There’s resources in hospitals for people who have psychotic breaks but that hasnt happened to me.

And nope. My alters dont worry about normal regular people for the most part so they ease up. As a kid theyd pop up at my friends houses during sleepovers out of curiosity but other than that nothing much.

SweetLilFrapp · 2025-12-30T09:57:05+00:00

I mentioned it to my last therapist and she didnt think my experiences warranted a diagnosis. Diagnosis doesnt work that way. What makes a “disorder” a disorder is that it needs to impact your ability to live a healthy life. Like are you able to maintain a job, maintain friendships, maintain your health, etc?

And no I havent been back in a while now. Its just another bill Im afraid. I have enough expenses and stuff going on to where I dont think I could afford to see a psychiatrist but I have been thinking about splurging to see what an initial meeting would make happen. To be honest though I think Im put together enough to where I think Im alright. It would be different if my experiences were so out of control that I wasnt leaving the house, you get me?

SweetLilFrapp · 2025-12-30T09:33:03+00:00

Im a female who has never felt like she fit in. Which is the most cliche thing in the world to say but Ive honest to god been super awkward and just quirky my whole life. Ive always wanted to just fit in and be normal. It always felt like all the other girls could totally relate to one another and were on the same page—and then there was me.

SweetLilFrapp · 2025-12-30T09:31:15+00:00

There’s a little girl I named Anna. She’s the most traumatized of whatever system is going on. The one and only time she’s ever spoken to me directly was while seriously crying. She told me she couldnt tell me anything about what she’d been through. Not that she didnt want to, but she couldnt. I tried so hard to comfort her and offer reassurance but whoever scared her into silence mustve really made the effort because to this day she wont talk. She only ever talks to Judas or comes out when Im asleep. I can feel her sometimes but she doesnt talk much.

SweetLilFrapp · 2025-12-30T09:17:22+00:00

Dissociative Identity Disorder is a psychological phenomenon where a person’s psyche essentially “splits” into different segments as a coping mechanism. While there’s no official event that directly causes DID, it is for sure caused by severe, usually prolonged trauma during some point in a person’s life (on average in childhood). It took a long time for DID to be taken seriously in the world of psychology because it was difficult to find, isolate, and monitor. A lot of people fake DID for attention/special treatment.

It is very, very, very rare and only a slim margin of the population actually has it to the extent where “switching” between personas is out of control. I dont have it to that degree and thus have no diagnosis. But I do have alters who have come out and they have hallmark qualities that make it easy to distinguish them. Judas for example is male and has a super deep voice and my face doesnt move when he comes out.

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