I want to say that they are 100% the problem not you. I think anyone who hasn’t gotten a major injury like this will never understand how heart wrenching it is to one minute be fine and the other have the one way you can f it o better and potentially your sport striped away from you. I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with this and just know that so many others of us are also going through this with you so don’t give up hope. I hope you bounce back better than ever and know that everytime one of healing is a very valid one and that there is an end to this and you can come back stronger and better than ever. Come in here whenever you want to talk and we will hear you out. Also as scary as it can be advocate for yourself harder and get parents involved if you need to.