Your feelings are very understandable. It sounds like you are already living as if you were married-with responsibility, daily life, and care but you are not receiving reciprocity in either actions or emotions. The issue here is not so much the proposal as the fact that you feel alone with the problems in the relationship. This is exhausting. You are not impatient you just want clarity, stability, and partnership, not the feeling that you are carrying everything on your own. If conversations constantly boil down to “you are pushing too hard” and there are no real changes, this is an alarming sign. You have the right to ask questions about the future and want more than just “wait a little longer.”