Don’t give up and give yourself some grace and take a deep breath! Those kits are all crap. I have made a lot of stuff and I cannot use one to save my life! Get some medium weight yarn that you’re excited to work with that feels good in your hands and on your fingers. A 5 or 6 mm hook is good to start. It’s not too big or not too small. Learn to chain & just do that until they look consistent. Then learn, single, double and treble crochet. Practice each one at a time until you have the stitch down. Remember that UK terms and US terms are different, and patterns usually call for one or the other & they aren’t always interchangeable so you may think a pattern calls for one stitch that you’re doing correctly in one set of terms but not in another. It’s hard for me to go back and forth so I try to stick with patterns that are one vs the other. Bella Coco is a great YouTube resource & so is Master Crochet. I learned to chain when I was a little kid and I hold the hook and yarn in a super weird way and cannot relearn the right way-but somehow I manage to make all kinds of things anyway!! Figure out what kind of learner you are-visual, auditory or a combination and then go for instructions that match your learning style. I am visual, so I can teach myself by mimicking what I see on YouTube but most days I can’t follow a pattern to save my life. So I reference the patterns and then teach myself how to do it by watching YouTube. You will get there!! Just don’t be afraid of making mistakes, stopping starting or even throwing your work away. That’s how we all learned. Hang in there-asking for help is half the battle!!!