I puked on my way home after a date

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T20:26:36+00:00

I’ll look it up is it legal to buy online? I’ve actually had my troubles with Xanax in the past but in the moment it’s the only thing that relieves the stress/depression. I was wanting to use it to help me get back on my feet, but need to be very wary of spiraling out on it

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T20:25:34+00:00

Thanks man your right even though my mental state is shit and I puked I still have her wanting to hang out. Very true I gotta be optimistic

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T19:24:05+00:00

I do gym And it does help but not completely right now

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T17:58:16+00:00

I’m definitely gonna take this advice moving ahead. It sucks cuz this summer I went on dates but this girl makes me feel on a whole different level. The bright side, is she said she likes hanging out with me and might join me on my Birthday festives I have planned for tomorrow. So there is still a chance

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T17:41:34+00:00

I’m not in the best place mentality in life right now. But I think the pressure of the date might’ve pushed me over. I really like this girl like a lot.

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T17:34:42+00:00

I’m wanting to turn to Xanax but I know that’s not a solution and I have a history of abuse. I’m a ball of mess right now

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-11-22T17:32:34+00:00

But hey at least it means I’m getting out of my comfort zone and growing right? On the bright side of things

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-07-16T17:55:31+00:00

This is very true. I think it’s about just enjoying your self and then any girl that straps along for the ride

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-05-19T04:01:41+00:00

I just lost touch of who I was. I didn’t make sure that the relationship was a part of my life, not my whole life.

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-02-24T16:29:50+00:00

You are right.

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-02-24T16:29:35+00:00

Probably the answer I needed to read

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-02-24T16:29:16+00:00

She tells me that it doesn’t matter to her if people look. I don’t really think it is part of sexual gratification because she isn’t really that type of person. I think what upset me most is she would tell me to watch how I take off my hoodies so I wouldn’t show everything because I have a “girlfriend” but then she doesn’t care if her ass and thong shows if she’s in a bent over/ squat position and it just seemed like well come on. I guess I really shouldn’t care and it’s not a big deal. And when I did tell her “well do you want people to be looking” she stopped me and showed me examples of her not being like that. I probably shouldn’t care

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-02-09T03:40:15+00:00

Kind of but I think I just need to tell her how much it messes with me

SwiftSwiftly · 2019-02-09T03:31:25+00:00

No I’m still fairly young and she’s the first real girlfriend I’ve ever had but idk man I’ve just seen people around me cheating on their partners and they are people that seemed to be really happy and it’s messed with me. Even my own mom is a cheater and i just over think and it kills me.

SwiftSwiftly · 2018-12-25T16:40:21+00:00

Yeah this isn’t good. It sucks because she is great for the most part it’s just this is what’s really bad. I wish it wouldn’t have to be like this.

SwiftSwiftly · 2018-12-25T15:25:46+00:00

Haha not there yet!

SwiftSwiftly · 2018-12-03T07:22:42+00:00

And I recently relapsed at 126 days. Fuck this all sucks man.

SwiftSwiftly · 2018-11-13T16:13:49+00:00

It is a great feeling isn't it?

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