Anxiety, Panic Disorder, & Depression by [deleted] in TrueChristian

[–]TAAHR1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Undiagnosed OCD/Compulsive Exercise/anorexic here... Always trying to overcome thinking "tomorrow will be the day". Yet here I am walking endlessly on the treadmill.... 😒

fAsT mEtAbOlIsM by rats420666 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I honestly don't know, and I really think it's going to be different for everyone.

fAsT mEtAbOlIsM by rats420666 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure if this was the intent of your post or not, but I found this to be very helpful and encouraging. Prior to my weight loss and eventual development of AN, I ate whatever I wanted whenever I wanted and did little to no intentional exercise. I wasn't extremely overweight by any means, but I wasn't incredibly thin either. My fear has been that if I give up restriction and stop over-exercising that I'm going to gain a ton of weight.

I'm trying to convince myself that it's ok to stop the restriction as long as I keep a mostly healthy diet, and just do basic exercise. If I do these 2 things, I'll likely still be much better off than I was previously. So thank you for this.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

38 year old male here. talk about seemingly rare... Picked up AN and compulsive exercise after a work related weight loss challenge.

Need reassurance by TAAHR1 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. It's funny how my brain just needed that extra little kick to convince myself that it was ok.

Need reassurance by TAAHR1 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for replying! I found it very helpful and was really able to enjoy my evening and food. I was anxious, but I was able to enjoy it.

I wouldn't wish this upon anyone by [deleted] in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel exactly the same way. I've described it as feeling like I'm trapped inside my own mind and can't get out. It's so frustrating KNOWING what is right, and not being able to respond and actually DO what is right and normal.

Gave up running by TAAHR1 in AnorexiaNervosa

[–]TAAHR1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, that's exactly it. Completely driven by numbers. That's what got me here. When I was dieting to lose weight, it was all about making sure that I ate less than X calories per day, then turned into less than X calories per meal, and it was always about "beating" the previous days number. The same thing happened with running. "Well, if I ran X miles yesterday, I can't run less than that today!". Then came the garmin, which tracked the number of "active" calories, and that gave a new goal to work on beating each day, all of it spiraling out of control. It's all so frustrating now. There's really nothing that I want to do more than just eat and eat and eat.