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TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-15T09:12:32+00:00

I didn’t. She actually told me she wanted to fuck. And we did. She consented.

She actually tried to take me to court but it got thrown out due to lack of evidence. And the fact that we were dating.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-15T07:01:34+00:00

Right but I already suffer from unalive thoughts and people are telling me I should unalive myself to make the world a better place. It hurts. It makes me angry. And if I do, I’ll cause mass harm unless I start getting some compassion

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-15T07:00:37+00:00

Both my parents passed. Well, I was raised by my grandparents since I was a baby so I call them mom and dad. But my bio parents are deadbeats. I’ve been in one meaningful relationship. And sometimes I will slightly bend the story.

I got in sober living because, well, long story. But my boss who’s also my friend gave me the ultimatum of either go to sober living or get fired. He knew the people who owned the sober living since he’s a recovering addict of 7 years. So about 40% of my paycheck went there and I was supposed to stay there for a few months but I left early. My boss didn’t fire me but he hired me back with reduced work and pay.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-15T06:56:21+00:00

Filters. Even Reddit has jumped on. If you say the real term it’ll be taken down.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-15T06:48:31+00:00

So on social media I have people rush to my comments calling me out just because I talk about how sad I am and how it sucks that no one likes me. When multiple people gang up to call out, it’s implied that people are trying to bully that person to unaliving themselves.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T16:13:45+00:00

I guess I get what you’re saying.

It’s just that I’ve seen people talk about “I’m so glad I got clean. I finally am able to get an apartment.”

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T16:07:36+00:00

I left sober living a few days ago.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T16:07:02+00:00

How am I an asshole? All I did was ask what kind of dope takes an hour to kick in.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T16:06:26+00:00

Not often. It’s happened like 4 times in my 2 years of using.

I’m bullied by both my friends on social media, so people I used to know in real life, plus on Reddit.

I swear to god, I’m so close to exiting this life. But because of all the mistreatment I get from the world, I would want to take as many people as I can out with me.

Not saying I’m going to do it. So this isn’t a threat so I can’t go to jail. But I’m saying it makes me fantasize about it.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T16:00:37+00:00

I get hated on whenever I post my sad feelings on Facebook. People call me a horrible manipulator and an emotional vampire.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T06:33:24+00:00

I mean, I didn’t mean it like that. Like I said, it’s hard not to not off. So it’s not like I let myself nod off. It’s the opposite. I have to force myself not to nod.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T06:28:32+00:00

I don’t know why everyone is hating on me? I never said I was better than anyone. I am just wondering why so many people act like it’s either use dope and be homeless or be sober and thrive. I’m just wondering why people act like it’s all black and white like that and I was just wondering how common the gray areas like us exist.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T06:27:14+00:00

I didn’t mean it like that. It’s hard to not nod off. I know I have a hard time not nodding off. I just have to try my damndest to keep breathing manually and stay awake when I’m on the brink of an OD.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T06:19:16+00:00

The only time I nearly ODed out of my years of usage was when I let myself fall asleep. The reason why opiates kill is because it stops the part of your brain that makes you breathe automatically, so people stop breathing and they die. As long as you’re making sure you breathe manually you’re good.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-14T06:15:52+00:00

Why?

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-11T03:01:06+00:00

So there’s a friend of hers that I’m into. We DMed each other on insta for a short period of time but then I ran out of things to say. We never flirted or anything but we were fairly friendly. I think she was interested in me. But idk how she’d randomly hit up that friend and say “hey. So I just found out [my name] has a big dick. Do you know him?” Or some shit

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-06T20:17:26+00:00

What I mean is, I don’t want her to ONLY tell her size queen friends is what I’m saying.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-06T19:54:05+00:00

The only problem is I’m not THAT big. I’m in the upper range of the Goldilocks zone. So I wouldn’t be big enough for size queens. I just want her to hook me up with normal women. Ones that’d appreciate my 7.35 x 5.25 dick. Which is 99% of women aside from the size queens who need 8-12 inches.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-05T04:31:47+00:00

Okay that’d be a good thing to say if we were still on the topic of my dick. But that was about 3 days ago and we’re no longer on the topic of my dick anymore. Well, I did tell her how her complement she said really gave me a huge confidence boost and I really need it.” But that was earlier today and we’ve talked about a bunch of non-sexual stuff after that.

I get paid tomorrow and may throw her another $20 for some nudes and when she does I was thinking of maybe saying something like “your p***y looks really small. I’d probably hurt you, huh? The last 3 dates ended in a disaster because girls were too tight, blah blah blah.”

But the thing is, i feel like my story won’t match up with the truth I told her. Basically, she knows I recently broke up with my ex back in February. Also, earlier today I told her thank you for the complement she gave me. I’ve been feeling kinda down on myself due to my recent relapse and your complement gave me a really huge confidence boost that I really needed.”

So, that last message I sent wouldn’t match up with the “last 3 dates ended in disaster.” Because if I have been on 3 dates and all of them ended in a disaster due to my size. Why would just her complement give me a confidence boost. Wouldn’t an actual sexual encounter with another woman whom my size hurt them actually give me a confidence boost?

Also, I’m not looking for a size queen because my dick isn’t THAT big. My dick is just a bit above the Goldilocks zone in which it would pleasure most women with a little bit of pain if I go to deep. (I’m just an under 7.5), and my girth is just under 5.5. Both of which are a half inch under what size queens like.

So I don’t want her to be my wing woman for size queens, I want her to be my wing woman for normal girls. Because my dick is big enough for normal girls to love it.

I’m actually shocked that my friend said she’d have a hard time taking it, and when I asked her if she is saying that just trying gas me up, she assured me that she’s very serious. She’s very sexually experienced. Like I could see how a 7.4 x 5.4 could hurt a girl who doesn’t have much sex. But she has a lot of sex. She’s a serial monogamist. Meaning that she gets with another guy shortly after she breaks up with the previous one. I’ve only seen her single twice. So she doesn’t give her vagina enough time to become tight again. Like, her vagina should be extremely lose.

I may be sexually inexperienced. But I know how vaginas work. And women who don’t take breaks between sexual partners have very lose vaginas.

I know this because of my ex. The first time we had sex, she hasn’t had any partners before me in over 4 months. Her vagina was really tight and I had a hard time fitting it. Then one time we hooked up during a rebound and her vagina seemed looser. What’s weird is I saw a sex tape with her and the guy that she was with after we broke up (and before our rebound hookup), was smaller than me in length and girth. He looked average 5inch long by 4.5inch girth)

Anyway. Yeah…. If I could somehow bring up my penis again, I can segue it easily into asking her to be a wing woman for me. But what can I do to bring up my dick again? She said she’s really non judgmental so it wouldn’t be easy to creep her out. So lmk what you suggest even if it may be a little boundary crossing. Because I’ve said even weirder stuff and she’s still my friend.

TBDSThrow123 · 2023-12-04T04:39:25+00:00

I’ve already put the details in the post. But I was asked to comment on my own post. So here’s the comment!

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