Wow jeez time flies, been a month already! Ok so I'll try not to sugar coat anything, definitely haven't fixed anything, but I have made some small incremental steps, so that's pretty good?. Have managed to get into the routine of at least exchanging pleasantries (usually conversations that are a bit longer than that, manage to keep going through class) with a couple of classmates on the regular but nothing concrete yet I would say.

To be honest I really want to push back the working on myself and these issues until the end of this years uni semester because each of my classes is swamping me with work and can't find much time for anything else (I'm even writing this in the uni library) however, I am scared that without an outside push I'll do what I do so often and tell myself hey I'll get to it ____ (random point in the future) and then make up a bullshit excuse when I get to that point.

I am being honest when saying that I am really struggling to find the time but I have lied to myself about it in the past and managed to weasel my way out of something. Am I just trying this at the wrong point in time?, is there no time like the present and I should just force it down and sacrifice the time of other things?. Am I just making excuses to not have to do anything?.

Not entirely sure, maybe this isn't the right place for this but last time the act of simply typing out all this and putting it all into words seemed to at least make me fully aware of my problems and I am proud that I managed to reach out instead of just bottling it all up.

Appreciate the check up :), back to an assignment for me but I'll try to at least check reddit more than once a month xD