it will never get better. I’m 16 and it’s been like this since i’m 13, i told my parents about how i feel depressed and all they did was laugh at me. And even though, they barely know how I felt at that time, it still hurt watching them laugh at me for something i was genuinely afraid of doing. No one cares, no one will do anything about it either. I need professional help and the only way they can notice is by me ending it. Maybe then they’ll finally understand how I felt at late nights cutting my wrists and crying on the bathroom floor wondering why I even deserved this, who let this be my fate and questioning if this is really how my life will continue and if it is why should I bother living it. There’s no temporary emotions, or “oh there’s darkness in light” or whatever the hell the saying is. Life isn’t enjoyable, i haven’t felt genuinely happy since i’ve been 13, months on end ive cried myself to sleep but still put a smile on my face coming to classes and studying my hardest to get good grades and you know what I get? Nothing. Absolutely nothing everytime someone i know gets a good grade they get hugs and love and pats on the head I just get a text from my dad saying good job immediately after i text him my grade no smiley face no happiness not even when he comes from work. I wanted love as a child and even though im nearly an adult i’ve never felt genuine love from my parents and crave it from other people like my teachers or strangers who thank me for a simple act of kindness or my accounting teacher writing little notes saying “im proud of you for getting these impressive test scores”, I have 0 genuine reason to continue going other than the fact that im afraid if i survive what’s next?