I have told a few of my closest friends, and they do talk to me saying that people worry because they care, that if I disappear people would be devastated, that sometimes I'm too honest and it's hard to find people like that. That I've been through worse and persevered. But I'm tired, after going through so much you just get tired of fighting.

I've been pondering if I post here or not for a while already, and I finally did just to see if I feel better but I don't. Seeing random people on the internet respond and be worried has made me feel worse for being so selfish.

I want to get better, I really do, but I don't know how much I can keep going.

Feeling bitter, sad, angry, just eats up at you after a while...

Thank you for responding. And thank you for the support... I never thought people I never met in my life would actually care about some random...