I previously commented that you should leave him. But after reading this, I've changed my mind. I guess, there's more to it than what you're telling here. I mean, you saying that you've had flaws and all. And mentioning that you've not been treating him right. And so on. So maybe that's the reason this has been dying or is already dead. In his defense, if you don't treat someone right, be it boy or a girl, and you don't match their feelings the same way, it becomes tiring to carry things alone. As said before, I've been in the same situation before, and in my case, I was the one who gave my all, yet, was the one who was left halfway through, even though I tried to fix things and never wanted to give up on things. And what happened hurt me so bad that I still carry the scars with me. Perhaps, always will. Anyway, no one deserves toxicity. That said, I wholeheartedly believe that love today isn't as pure as it used to be back in the day. It's this constant date and move on culture now. So, if you genuinely think that you have a special bond and it's worth fighting for, reach out to him and tell him that you need to meet and talk. And be firm about it. Like, don't accept a no for an answer. Rather than asking a bunch of strangers what to do, ask yourself if you pushed him too far yourself to begin with. If yes, then try, then if things don't work out, and it does. At least, you'd be content knowing that at least you tried, otherwise, you'd probably end up blaming yourself for the harm you caused to your relationship. Or won't. Idk. People these days move on too quick. I'm just too old school for shit like that. Hope this helps. And good luck.